I Guess Nothing's Left...

[c_rza]

Well, last night as I was writing in my notebook, continuing my effort to publish a book, I overheard my mom talking to my grandmother about how she doesn't want me here anymore. It's happened before, but things weren't able to be resolved this time like, every other time. So I don't know where things are headed. I tried to talk to my father,

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where do i start....

[anonymous]

ok.. let me start out with.. if you join the military... you are fucking schmuck... and marines no less.. are you not thinking.. look you make the same amount of money in any other service, why would you join the marines?... there is nothing there.. all the people in the marines are fucking morons.. i'm serious though.. there is no reason why you should just the marine.. blah blah but my grandfather, my uncle, and where are they now? and what did the marines do for them? if you can breath and have a trigger finger you can join the marines, they brainwash you, and you wouldn't look good in a marine uniform, you are too fucking short.. omg i'm soo pisseed right now.. you come out of the marines with nothing, there is no education there, nothing at all, you come out knowing how to fight and kill, with a false sense of "honor"..."soo you too can learn how to shoot a gun and be a human shield and we'll only pay you 20,000 a year!!!" sounds great! yeah we have friends there... and don't get me wrong.. i have no idea what what either of them were thinking.. omar is a moron.. and eddie i love him and all but i don't think he was in the right state of mind at the time, and i blame that on omar. but whatev... i'm close to them like i am you, look you join the marines, i will personally kick your ass. and i'm dead serious. ok.. look at your options, marines... first ones in the war... last ones out, boot camp sucks goat nuts, and you learn how to shoot a gun really really well (we all know that we need that in the real world!!*note the sarcasm*) for only 20,000 a year.. oh and wait there is more.. you get to sleep in a hell hole that is worst then living in a dorm. then you mention the army... pat tillman?.. are you doing this soo you can send a message.. cause the only message i see is "bbeepp beeep you are fucking moron!beep beeep" army, same thing, just less monkeys in a basket,but lets see what you get out of it, hmmm learning how to shoot a weapon (like i said..) uhh same hellhole... and don't give that bullshit that all these services have special programs that i can learn shit.. blah blah blah its all bullshit go to union square and count how many homeless people are holding signs that says military vet..gimme money please, yeah the military is bullshit and anyone how wants to tell me otherwise can talk to me.. i hope to god omar reads this shit cause i know it'll piss him off.. hmm you never talked about the navy.. coastguard... or airforce, noooo cause that doesn't make any sense... hmm maybe cause you are too stupid to realize that you make the SAME AMOUNT OF MONEY IN EVERY SERVICE... noo but that wouldn't make sense, cause either you want people to see that you are going to put yourself through fuckin hell and we can all feel sorry... if i could watch you at bootcamp in the marines and you were doing push ups i would first kick you while you were down and spit on you. hmm navy sounds good. but no.. still a chance to go to war.. but did you realize this?.. but to marine..war is a good thing right.. don't get me wrong.. like i said before "never forgive.. never forget.. fuck the middle east" and i want their oil. but i'll spend the extra 3 dollars to pump my gas to save your life. Its atleast worth that much. how about coastguard or airforce?... noooooooo that wouldn't make any sense right chris?.. nooo i mean its not dangerous enough. airforce.. bootcamp is a joke, you get some what of an education out of it, if you go to war.. you'll be behind a desk point and clicking where people should fight.. not one time will you see touch sand and go hunting for Sanas, and guess what, you get to make 20,000 a year.. i just calulated this.. 20,000 a year is what i make of allowance!wow... anyway.. or coastguard.. hmm.. never going to see war... drive a boat around the city, and wait.. 20,000 a year.. BUT NO YOU WOULDN"T WANT THAT.. i don't know what your think process is.. but it isn't working.. u my friend are not thinking.. and guess what.. daddy is wrong.. dead wrong.. leave dad in P.A with the cows, and his life there cause obviously he doesn't want to help you, its time to start thinking how do to do things for yourself. yeah the doorman job is a good start, you can probably get a cheap apartment, and still go to school

Re: where do i start....continued..asshole

[anonymous]

college can't wait, people who were in the military keep thinking this, but when you get out of the military, how old are you going to be? 22?.. then you go to college... 26 to get you B.A and if you want to get your masters.. uh oh you are hitting close to 30's. people who get out of the military unless they went to an academy just go into the labor force.. is that what you want to do?.. make min. pay and work your ass off your whole life? the military will fill you with sooo much bullshit about honor and courage, and how you should take the adventure of a life time.. yeah cause thats exactly what you are going to be thinking about when you are charging with your rifle into two heavy machine guns(sarcasm)... life isn't socom jerk.. anywhooooooooo... gimme a call junior... -adam

Re: where do i start....continued..asshole

[c_rza]

Adam, you know you're one of my best friends, no lie. And I do appreciate your concern about things, unfortunately, it's not generally all about the amount of money I'd be making. I don't plan on going to the marines and making big money and opening a string of my own "Paradise Clubs" with a hundred "Lisa's". But the only reason I'd be pushed into that direction is to inevitably get away from my mom. I can't stand to be near her. I have no money otherwise to do so. Marines, army, navy, etc. is the only place I could go for free. I have no family that'd I'd even particularly want to burden by living with them. I should be able to live in my own home, and not be forced to live somewhere else. But I seriously don't have many options. I can stay here and end up killing myself cuz of my mother's bullshyt, or I can get out of here and make her sorry.
~Chris

Re: where do i start....continued..asshole

[anonymous]

but think about.. i'm sure the recruiter said things like "you should be living on your own"... but lets think about this..are you really living on your own?... are you really free? you are trading your mom in for a drill sgt. you have more freedom at home than you will in a military service? think about it.. i know i'm right..

Re: where do i start....continued..asshole

[c_rza]

Considering that my last meeting with the recruiter was a long time ago, around Christmas time, I can't quite remember if he exactly said that, noting that you quoted him. But I wouldn't be on my own and considerably free, but I'm more on the fact that I don't want to be subjected to my mom's oppressive and bitchy ways. I can't take that anymore, so I think I'd appreciate the change. And it's not like I don't depend on my friends already. I'm sure I'd make some along the way through boot camp and such. And yeah, the only reason I attain the freedom here is cuz I run away from her...I mean you of all people should know that. And on another note, I don't think this is a rule for who's right or not, and I don't see why it needs to turn into an argument on who's considerably wrong or right...Really doesn't make sense to turn this into a competition now...

Re: where do i start....continued..asshole

[ambermourning]

what's funny is that Adam makes a good point. You don't make alot of sense in what you're saying...if you want to join the military to get away from your mom, 1. that's a pretty shitty reason and you'll regret it 2. why on earth would you join the marines? personally, the airforce would be the best bet, but I'm not even going to try to sell you on that because it doesn't matter to me one way or the other, but really...from now on, try and put a little more thought into your plans for the furture...more thought, less dramatic emotion