Jun 15, 2006 00:23
And now, from the makers of Desperate Housewives, the new hit show:
Desperate Emily
I really should be hitting my head against the wall right now. I'm so stupid sometimes. And don't say it isn't true. Because sometimes it really is.
I get myself all worked up over things. Stuff that shouldn't matter at all and I don't even want to matter. But for some strange reason it does. Like when everybody's busy and I have nothing to do, so I have to start thinking about things that I don't want to. Like why I'm not doing anything. I just have a hard time being with myself. Other people do it all the time. I mean, it's weird going back to where I say maybe 5 sentences in a whole day. That's what I do when I'm by myself. Seriously. So what I did was, I called up Aunt Ginny to actually ask her if there was anything I could do for her. Like, just anything at all. Not that she answered the phone. But I was prepared to be really desperate sounding because. I was. So I called pants a second later and she told me I could shred paper. So I made $10 but it still didn't take my mind off things. holy saints.
Also. I don't think I'm gonna draw anymore. It's a waste of time. and not that great of a hobby anyway. I'll just kind of wait till the 23rd when I go to Kansas. then once I'm there I'll just work and not think about anything at all.
and I'll sleep through the rest of the summer.
I wish I could stand up for myself more too. I'm not very good at that.