So the aggravation continues...
I'm on my hands and knees now...Praying for my sanity..You stress me out sooo bad. And, you say you've changed, but you're making me feel exactly the same way...if not worse. What do you want me to do? Tell you that I want to be with you...That I love you with every single part of me...No, that would be lying to you.....I don't feel the same way I did for you...I've lost a lot of respect for you through all this...And, I don't really care how you feel about me..I know I did you wrong in the past...But the past is just that..THE PAST! You taught me what lying does and how it affects people you love..This I know...That's why I'm no longer doing it...I feel no reason to...That's why whoever's with me next will have the best of me.
I wanted to keep you in my life because I love you...I care about you...You mean a great deal to me...But don't confuse this with I'm in love with you...I want you...And, I care about you before myself..No, it's not like that anymore...I've learned that you could love someone with everything you are, but that doesn't mean that will keep them from pulling your heart out of your chest and stepping all over it...Because that's what you did to me...And, the sad reality of it all was I trusted you...I thought it was best for you to stay in Florida for a while because the strain that was put on our relationship from missing your family...I trusted that you wouldn't hurt me...That you wouldn't lie to me...That you cared about me enough to not put me through everything you did. But I was wrong....Instead you tried to make me feel like the reason you cheated on me was my fault...Because we got in one fight? That gave you the permission you needed to go do things with someone else...Then how does that explain the several times it happened? Wait..I'm going ahead of myself...So you told me, that you hurt me ONCE...I dealt with that...I even put in money for you to come back to me...To find...an e-mail a few days later...with words I only thought you could express to me...It killed me...It gave me the most pain, I ever felt in my life...Because I was in love with you...Because I considered you my wife..Because I didn't think you could be so cold and heartless...Because I thought you actually cared about me...
And, now you think I'm just going to tell you that there's a chance of us being together...How can I answer such an absurd question? Sighs. You haven't changed..You don't understand that to even think about being in a relationship with you, angers me..I can't see past the things you did to me...The things I never deserved to go through..And, I still hurt, but I choose to keep that with myself because I'm not going to cry because of you..I'm stronger than that...
I wanted to keep you in my life because I love you...I care about you...You mean a great deal to me...But don't confuse this with I'm in love with you...I want you...And, I care about you before myself..No, it's not like that anymore...I've learned that you could love someone with everything you are, but that doesn't mean that will keep them from pulling your heart out of your chest and stepping all over it...Because that's what you did to me...And, the sad reality of it all was I trusted you...I thought it was best for you to stay in Florida for a while because the strain that was put on our relationship from missing your family...I trusted that you wouldn't hurt me...That you wouldn't lie to me...That you cared about me enough to not put me through everything you did. But I was wrong....Instead you tried to make me feel like the reason you cheated on me was my fault...Because we got in one fight? That gave you the permission you needed to go do things with someone else...Then how does that explain the several times it happened? Wait..I'm going ahead of myself...So you told me, that you hurt me ONCE...I dealt with that...I even put in money for you to come back to me...To find...an e-mail a few days later...with words I only thought you could express to me...It killed me...It gave me the most pain, I ever felt in my life...Because I was in love with you...Because I considered you my wife..Because I didn't think you could be so cold and heartless...Because I thought you actually cared about me...
And, now you think I'm just going to tell you that there's a chance of us being together...How can I answer such an absurd question? Sighs. You haven't changed..You don't understand that to even think about being in a relationship with you, angers me..I can't see past the things you did to me...The things I never deserved to go through..And, I still hurt, but I choose to keep that with myself because I'm not going to cry because of you..I'm stronger than that...