Eugene and Life
Glad to be back from Eugene. I returned a day early because two of the events scheduled by the University of Oregon Department of Computer and Information Sciences did not happen. Whether or not the other three events were going to happen I don't know. I feel like I was stood up for a date twice in a row. I did go to the first event on Thursday afternoon and was deeply depressed by it and some recently revived memories of the past...all of which combined to make me feel inadequate and a failure.
The truth is: I do the best I can and I try to do what I do in an ethical manner. Those who succeed at everything are extremely exceptional, lucky or take advantage of others.
I can't redo the past. Going back, unfortunately, reminds me of the good and the bad in the past. Rather than be discouraged by what I can't do today which I used to be able to do...or by what I didn't do or what I didn't continue to do over the years...I need to focus on the goals of today and how to achieve them.
* Create a comfortable, secure, joyful life for my family.
* Be successful at work so the above goal can be reached (but not to the exclusion of the above!).
* Work at becoming more healthy so that the quality of the days as well as the number of days ahead is greater.
* Do what I can to support organizations whose goals match mine.
* Live a life with as low impact on the environment as can reasonably be achieved without limiting the above.
* Try to leave something behind when I die that will be of use to the continuing life in the universe. I really don't know what that is and don't even know if this is even important, yet I have this drive to do so.
I may, like so many people, live a life and then be forgotten. Over the expanse of time, we all eventually are lost. The effects of what we did in our life can change things even if our name is not associated with the effects. So, for me, I want to make sure my life somehow contributed to making the world better and not worse for me being in it. If someone remembers this, great...but I know eventually that will fade away in time. Everything does.
The truth is: I do the best I can and I try to do what I do in an ethical manner. Those who succeed at everything are extremely exceptional, lucky or take advantage of others.
I can't redo the past. Going back, unfortunately, reminds me of the good and the bad in the past. Rather than be discouraged by what I can't do today which I used to be able to do...or by what I didn't do or what I didn't continue to do over the years...I need to focus on the goals of today and how to achieve them.
* Create a comfortable, secure, joyful life for my family.
* Be successful at work so the above goal can be reached (but not to the exclusion of the above!).
* Work at becoming more healthy so that the quality of the days as well as the number of days ahead is greater.
* Do what I can to support organizations whose goals match mine.
* Live a life with as low impact on the environment as can reasonably be achieved without limiting the above.
* Try to leave something behind when I die that will be of use to the continuing life in the universe. I really don't know what that is and don't even know if this is even important, yet I have this drive to do so.
I may, like so many people, live a life and then be forgotten. Over the expanse of time, we all eventually are lost. The effects of what we did in our life can change things even if our name is not associated with the effects. So, for me, I want to make sure my life somehow contributed to making the world better and not worse for me being in it. If someone remembers this, great...but I know eventually that will fade away in time. Everything does.