Nerves in hands, Red Cross
* Last night I went to bed early at around 9:40 p.m., but although I thought I was tired, I could not sleep. I felt something akin to "pins and needles" in my hands primarily but throughout my body. My heart was not beating faster but this sensation could not be ignored and I couldn't relax. I felt as if my body was shutting down. So after an hour of trying to sleep I put on my robe and hung out with Marisa until around midnight. I felt a little more at ease when we both went to bed, yet the strange feeling continued. I finally slept, but when I woke the feeling was still there. They don't affect me outwardly: my hands do not shake. Yet, I can feel my nerves firing off in my hands especially...the left hand more than the right. Is this just another thing I must live with? This sounds like peripheral neuropathy, but it is not pronounced in the feet or legs, so likely not due to diabetes.
* If I were to die today, do I feel my life justified my use of resources on this planet or did I do more damage than good? I ask myself that a lot. I certainly don't feel I have been as impactful as I had hoped. While I do try to limit my footprint on this planet, I sometimes feel if I were to disappear tomorrow few would care and some may even say "I'm glad he is gone."
I would like to leave with more people grateful for my life than otherwise.
* The Red Cross rescheduled its blood drive at work after cancelling on me. I think it is the same day and I signed up for the same time, around 10:30 or 10:45 a.m., on June 12. Anyway, that is certainly a hard deadline for me dumping the compost.
* I do plan to dump the compost this week, I hope Saturday:
[] finish filling the trench and the pipe path to the trench.
[] cut the pipe (I located some saws yesterday) and remove it.
[] fill all remaining pipe paths
[] move the gravel
[] recover river rock
[] dig out Byron Hill 2 to go to the lawn
[] dump the compost into the pile
Then Sunday morning:
[] mix compost and dirt.
[] finish putting in scalloped edging
[] break up soil facing scalloped edging (removing plastic grid, rocks)
[] add the soil mixture
[] continue this process until all soil is processed and the compost/dirt pile is used.
[] plant
* Tonight is the last episode of Star Trek Discovery. Marisa missed the penultimate show, so we will watch the last two episodes tonight. NPR has a commentary about the impact of the series which is not filled with praise but somehow acknowledges its place in the Star Trek universe.
* I do have a skin scan in August. I think they scheduled a date on a Monday around 10:15 a.m. at Central Interstate Kaiser.
* If I were to die today, do I feel my life justified my use of resources on this planet or did I do more damage than good? I ask myself that a lot. I certainly don't feel I have been as impactful as I had hoped. While I do try to limit my footprint on this planet, I sometimes feel if I were to disappear tomorrow few would care and some may even say "I'm glad he is gone."
I would like to leave with more people grateful for my life than otherwise.
* The Red Cross rescheduled its blood drive at work after cancelling on me. I think it is the same day and I signed up for the same time, around 10:30 or 10:45 a.m., on June 12. Anyway, that is certainly a hard deadline for me dumping the compost.
* I do plan to dump the compost this week, I hope Saturday:
[] finish filling the trench and the pipe path to the trench.
[] cut the pipe (I located some saws yesterday) and remove it.
[] fill all remaining pipe paths
[] move the gravel
[] recover river rock
[] dig out Byron Hill 2 to go to the lawn
[] dump the compost into the pile
Then Sunday morning:
[] mix compost and dirt.
[] finish putting in scalloped edging
[] break up soil facing scalloped edging (removing plastic grid, rocks)
[] add the soil mixture
[] continue this process until all soil is processed and the compost/dirt pile is used.
[] plant
* Tonight is the last episode of Star Trek Discovery. Marisa missed the penultimate show, so we will watch the last two episodes tonight. NPR has a commentary about the impact of the series which is not filled with praise but somehow acknowledges its place in the Star Trek universe.
* I do have a skin scan in August. I think they scheduled a date on a Monday around 10:15 a.m. at Central Interstate Kaiser.