May 31, 2012 17:46
So today has been one of the worst days that I've had in a long time, it started out good and relaxed, but quickly turned upsidedown. What started it was in our vault, my boss, CWO2, came and had a big discussion with us about how its gonna change at work. Then he randomly threw out there that myself and one of my coworkers won't be there for much longer. SHe is gonna move to our office, which is good for her, and then told me that he's gonna send me to Beaufort SC for a year, and I'll be leaving in a couple months. Normally I'd be excited that I have this opportunity, but I've had other plans and this will ruin it, and change the rest of my career. I've been planning on staying where I'm at for a littler longer, pick up my next rank, and have my DI pin me on. Then spend my birthday here with my closest friends and have a party. But if I leave I'll be leaving in the month of my birthday, so I'll probably spend it by myself.
This is one thing that I really don't like about the USMC, its so unpredictable and unstable, your spot is never secure. Just when I think I'm headed in the direction I want, this pops up. One of the guys I work with said he'll talk to CWO and explain how I haven't been working in the Vault for very long and want to stay there.
It sucks, cause I just got moved to our vault about a month ago, and I'm still learning how to do everything. I feel like I should be given time to prove myself there and become profiecient. If my coworker is gonna be leaving, the I'm really needed there and will have to be teaching the new person that comes in. I just don't get how my boss thinks, he just sees us as numbers and we can all be replaced.
Simply, I don't want to go to Beaufort. I want to spend some more time where I'm at, then possibly deploy to Afghanistan with the people I work with. Pick up Cpl, have SSgt Stokley pin me on, then do MSG duty. After MSG, go to Drill Instructor Duty. If I was able to do all that, then I'd be soooo happy!!! Thats my dream!
I keep getting shit thrown at me and not shit that I want, its unfair, and I know that there are plenty of marines that want to take my spot to Beaufort, so why not give it to someone that really wants it? thats what makes sense right?
I'm just so stressed and unsure of what is to come in the future.
wish me the best of luck
~Willy