Meds
That's right, I'm on meds right now as I write this.. it's a cousin to enderall (enderol?) and it seems to be working quite nicely. I played in my lesson and my embrochure was a little loose (something I'll have to fix by monday) but other than that I think it went well.
it's kinda weird, I feel so non-focused on anything in particular but still feel like I have great perception.. but it's just not so. I think the greatest part is that I'm not critiqueing myself during my performing of a piece. That's what usually kills me is I over analyze while playing it instead of just going in and getting things done. This drug will help me to end my anxiety, I'm glad.. and hopeful... hope.
Now that I think about it.. hope isn't good. It came out of pandora's box along with all the crap society deals with.. hope is bad. I'm just glad. Not hopeful at all.
it's kinda weird, I feel so non-focused on anything in particular but still feel like I have great perception.. but it's just not so. I think the greatest part is that I'm not critiqueing myself during my performing of a piece. That's what usually kills me is I over analyze while playing it instead of just going in and getting things done. This drug will help me to end my anxiety, I'm glad.. and hopeful... hope.
Now that I think about it.. hope isn't good. It came out of pandora's box along with all the crap society deals with.. hope is bad. I'm just glad. Not hopeful at all.