if i had all the wisdom in the world, i would give it to you
every time i sit down to write a journal entry i get a few lines done then decide what i want to say isn't that great. i don't know if it is just that i don't have much to say or i just don't have any creative writing ability at that particular moment. something in me wants what i say to inspire people, push them to be better than they are, force them to look inward and evaluate who they are becoming, and in turn push myself to go even farther beyond that. maybe a journal is just about being honest and allowing the light that you shine into your dark corners spill over and show someone else that this life is messy for all of us but we aren't supposed to go it alone. you know, i find comfort in that idea. that my worries and fears and failures aren't as unique as i think and if i am just willing to share them you never know what the outcome might be.
so much has happened in the last months since i wrote. i have realized a dream, chased after others. seen success at some and failure at others. i've met people that have impacted my life forever and given the cold shoulder to others. i am a selective extrovert and a closet introvert. it probably stems from my feeling of always being on the outside of the group. do i need to be loud, funny and outgoing to be included or do i need to be the one just walking around the circle quietly hoping someone would see me and invite me in? I can do both very well but lately i have noticed i am getting better at being the quiet one. i've been doing life by myself for so long that i am almost awkward in groups now.
i'm not totally alone though, i have family and friends and church people and a dog of course, but being surrounded with people and being alone have nothing to do with each other.
the last few weeks i have reconnected with lots of people from my past. it is strange how people come and go. its good to catch up.
have i told you that two of my ministry passions are relationships and people in college and early twenties. i feel like i am called to help bring a revolution to marriages and young people. in fact i believe that the next great spiritual boom is going to come about when people our age get fed up and turn our energies from the latest material things to really searching for God. i see it happening already.
i actually preached a message not long ago called single guys guide to marriage. i know it isn't good to covet but i am sick and tired of people who have found their spouse, taking it for granted. I am tired of hearing women put down their husbands and husbands disrespecting their wives. you are joined as "one flesh" in marriage so the abuse is actually against yourself when you get down to it. there are those of us who would love to have someone to live life with but we don't yet for whatever reason, so change your relationship. put your spouse as high as you can behind God. compliment them, encourage them, thank them, pamper them, and most of all love them, i mean really love them beyond the feeling. make the choice every day that you will be their greatest cheerleader. you owe it to them in a world like this, to be the constant here on Earth. God knows we all need someone like that and thats why he gave us each other.
did i tell you i am also getting into shape? well a shape other than round around the middle. i have started eating well and working out. my goal is 8% body fat and a 30 inch waist. i just got tired of feeling unhealthy and finally decided to do something about it. unfortunately i inherited the junk-food gene so it is particularly difficult to turn down the goodies but it will be worth it in the long run.
all for now
but i have more to write about next time too
p.s.
if you haven't done it you should buy sara groves new song "when the saints" then turn it on as loud as you can and drive down the road. it is such a powerful song and it is one of those songs that shines a light on my faith and challenges me to go deeper. when i am listening to that song i feel like i can do anything.
so much has happened in the last months since i wrote. i have realized a dream, chased after others. seen success at some and failure at others. i've met people that have impacted my life forever and given the cold shoulder to others. i am a selective extrovert and a closet introvert. it probably stems from my feeling of always being on the outside of the group. do i need to be loud, funny and outgoing to be included or do i need to be the one just walking around the circle quietly hoping someone would see me and invite me in? I can do both very well but lately i have noticed i am getting better at being the quiet one. i've been doing life by myself for so long that i am almost awkward in groups now.
i'm not totally alone though, i have family and friends and church people and a dog of course, but being surrounded with people and being alone have nothing to do with each other.
the last few weeks i have reconnected with lots of people from my past. it is strange how people come and go. its good to catch up.
have i told you that two of my ministry passions are relationships and people in college and early twenties. i feel like i am called to help bring a revolution to marriages and young people. in fact i believe that the next great spiritual boom is going to come about when people our age get fed up and turn our energies from the latest material things to really searching for God. i see it happening already.
i actually preached a message not long ago called single guys guide to marriage. i know it isn't good to covet but i am sick and tired of people who have found their spouse, taking it for granted. I am tired of hearing women put down their husbands and husbands disrespecting their wives. you are joined as "one flesh" in marriage so the abuse is actually against yourself when you get down to it. there are those of us who would love to have someone to live life with but we don't yet for whatever reason, so change your relationship. put your spouse as high as you can behind God. compliment them, encourage them, thank them, pamper them, and most of all love them, i mean really love them beyond the feeling. make the choice every day that you will be their greatest cheerleader. you owe it to them in a world like this, to be the constant here on Earth. God knows we all need someone like that and thats why he gave us each other.
did i tell you i am also getting into shape? well a shape other than round around the middle. i have started eating well and working out. my goal is 8% body fat and a 30 inch waist. i just got tired of feeling unhealthy and finally decided to do something about it. unfortunately i inherited the junk-food gene so it is particularly difficult to turn down the goodies but it will be worth it in the long run.
all for now
but i have more to write about next time too
p.s.
if you haven't done it you should buy sara groves new song "when the saints" then turn it on as loud as you can and drive down the road. it is such a powerful song and it is one of those songs that shines a light on my faith and challenges me to go deeper. when i am listening to that song i feel like i can do anything.