leaving
why does it seem so much harder this time than it did last time? for everyone. maybe because i know i can't wait for them to come back to me this time. i'm leaving, myself.
it's so funny i'm starting over in so much of my life. But how can you start over with things that you haven't even gotten through yet? Haven't even passed yet?
how does that work?
maybe it will just happen and i won't have to ponder on these stupid things all the friggin time. lol. i would like that.
i don't know how i'm emotionally going to be in a week. thats really odd to say.
this is a show. lol. there is no trust. it makes me laugh to know that i know what happens, whats going on, and i go with it. it's so entertaining sometimes. like when you see a performance, and you get exactly what you wanted out of it. emotions..feelings. you have it all. for that time being...it's grand. i would take just one of those moments over all the bad.....well...obviously if i'm still doin this. lol it amuses me how much i do for those couple moments though. do to myself. lol.....
amusement.
real comfort. i think thats what i want most out of life. and the comfort i found..i'm starting over again.
getting my hair cut again in a week or so. it's like that! it's all like a haircut. seriously. ...if you got this entry...you got that. honest. promise.
it's just a trim
-Kara*
laguna beach tonight...made me cry? i know that feeling. I have a strong feeling it will be worse this time around. and i don't want to show my emotions this time.
it's so funny i'm starting over in so much of my life. But how can you start over with things that you haven't even gotten through yet? Haven't even passed yet?
how does that work?
maybe it will just happen and i won't have to ponder on these stupid things all the friggin time. lol. i would like that.
i don't know how i'm emotionally going to be in a week. thats really odd to say.
this is a show. lol. there is no trust. it makes me laugh to know that i know what happens, whats going on, and i go with it. it's so entertaining sometimes. like when you see a performance, and you get exactly what you wanted out of it. emotions..feelings. you have it all. for that time being...it's grand. i would take just one of those moments over all the bad.....well...obviously if i'm still doin this. lol it amuses me how much i do for those couple moments though. do to myself. lol.....
amusement.
real comfort. i think thats what i want most out of life. and the comfort i found..i'm starting over again.
getting my hair cut again in a week or so. it's like that! it's all like a haircut. seriously. ...if you got this entry...you got that. honest. promise.
it's just a trim
-Kara*
laguna beach tonight...made me cry? i know that feeling. I have a strong feeling it will be worse this time around. and i don't want to show my emotions this time.