Crushing Hoping Not to Get Crushed
For the past two days I've been extremely giddy. I feel just like a little girl again having her first crush, except I'm older now and it's probably the first time since the sixth grade I've fallen for a guy. I have such high hopes and standards that I haven't really found someone. I've come to terms that I'm a profectionist and afraid of uncertainty. Yes, this is me talking as a psychologist. I've had a few "suitors" recently (one of which doesn't seem to get the hint) that my friends joke that I'll always have suitors but never be suited. I finally came to terms with it this weekend. Funny how my roomate was crushing on his roomate to begin with...although that didn't work out because he liked someone else. I hate the uncertainty of the situation and just rather know either way. Personally, I'd perfer if he felt the same way about me but with the way my life is i'm afraid to expect the best.
GRRRRRRRRRRR. Frustration.
Jamie says he definitely likes me, which led to me telling her the situation. We did flirt a lot Wednesday night but it was close to 1 am and we were both tired and out of it. He certainly didn't seem to mind though. As Jamie put it, he was "cooing" me and no one else. He kept asking me to stay although I was beyond tired and I complied. Also, the few times I pass by his suite, on occasion he comes out and I just keep hoping it's just to say hi to me and sometimes asks us to come by later. He usually looks a bit dazed and confused without a real purpose to be in the hallway so I can't help but get my hopes up. He also shares my mother's birthday. Well, yeah I have to think of something.....but it would be really nice to finally have someone return these wonderful feelings and for the first time to have a serious relationship.
GRRRRRRRRRRR. Frustration.
Jamie says he definitely likes me, which led to me telling her the situation. We did flirt a lot Wednesday night but it was close to 1 am and we were both tired and out of it. He certainly didn't seem to mind though. As Jamie put it, he was "cooing" me and no one else. He kept asking me to stay although I was beyond tired and I complied. Also, the few times I pass by his suite, on occasion he comes out and I just keep hoping it's just to say hi to me and sometimes asks us to come by later. He usually looks a bit dazed and confused without a real purpose to be in the hallway so I can't help but get my hopes up. He also shares my mother's birthday. Well, yeah I have to think of something.....but it would be really nice to finally have someone return these wonderful feelings and for the first time to have a serious relationship.