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sorry i haven't been updating, i've just been real real busy. this place is getting scary.i hear so many mortars and rockets shot into our camp that im on the floor if someone closes a door too loud. i'm sicking of carrying my rifle and 60 lbs of body armor everywhere i go. i'm sick of waking up 4 times a night. i'm sick of getting the shits from the nasty hajji food at the dining facility. i want to be at michigan state getting wasted and doing school work. haha. you college kids think it sucks when you have to write essays, I WANT TO BE WRITING ESSAYS and studying and shit. i'm learning a lot here. i get to do so much more than at the er at home. i just learned to sutre and i'm pushing meds iv and doing my own lab tests and shit like that, but i'm still so far away from my goals. i dont know if i want to do nursing anymore. the shit im doing right now is everything nurses at riverview er do and my scope of practice is actually broader. i think im definitely going to have to do either pa or med school, because this shit is just not mentally challenging enough. the mentally challenging part is trying to take a shit without being afraid of getting blown up. that and trying to fill the day after you've already jerked off 3 times. go to work, clean your room, clean your weapon, work out, take a shower, watch a bootleg dvd go to sleep repeat. my life alternates between monotony and terror. i got to go to the "green zone" aka the international zone last week. that was cool. i worked at the US embassy in baghdad which is one of saddam's old palaces. i swam in saddam's swimming pool, and there were girls there wearing bikinis. holy shit. i played poker and imbibed and it was awesome. that was only for three days and i wanted to cry when i had to get back on that helicopter. oh well. at least i got some sweet pictures. which i will try to get posted on here soon. my roommate is losing his mind. he's afraid to go anywhere and is like living at the clinic. i think this shit is hitting him hard. i'm trying to help him, but he is a different cat...hard to talk to. kind of reminds me of one of my friends back home. i don't know what else to put on here without scaring you too much. i miss you all and i will be coming home real soon. xoxo