i feel blue
im sad..... ....me and devin broke up forreal tonight. he said he thinks we should be just friends. i know thats what we should do. i dont want to be together. its weird tho...im so upset. i cant quit crying. and i mean this is what we've been leading up to all summer and i've been knowing, but i havent been this upset and sad. its just like last time. i was bugging all the time when we were together, and then when we broke up i was depressed. ugh! y am i crying.?! maybe cuz i know we arent getting back together, anytime soon atleast. i think we can be friends.
its not just that. mostly but not just.
i feel really bad for being so mean to stefanie. i mean, yeah she ditched us after we'd made plans. it ticked me off. so i called and fussed the crap out of her. bc i kno we get to hang out at school, but it so doesnt count as quality chillin. but we do hang out all the time and she doesnt get that many chances to hang out with other ppl bc of work and stuff. but i mean what am i being so butty for. i overreacted. im a butt.
also, dotn think im an idiot, but u kno this is depressing too. baseball season is over. no more games, no more team to root for, no more roadtrips for a while,no more romebraves, no more dean, yunel, arthur, etc. its sad. im gonna be so totally bored. there's school, but it just reminds me that im a disorganized, lazy, bum, slob with no direction whatsoever in life. there's work. but yet again, i dont want to.
and...its august. its rainy and hurricainy. winter is coming. its gonna be cold and sad. thinking of winter brings me down.
i hope this is just late night sadness and that i'll be happier in the morning. my eyes are gonna totally hurt. later.
its not just that. mostly but not just.
i feel really bad for being so mean to stefanie. i mean, yeah she ditched us after we'd made plans. it ticked me off. so i called and fussed the crap out of her. bc i kno we get to hang out at school, but it so doesnt count as quality chillin. but we do hang out all the time and she doesnt get that many chances to hang out with other ppl bc of work and stuff. but i mean what am i being so butty for. i overreacted. im a butt.
also, dotn think im an idiot, but u kno this is depressing too. baseball season is over. no more games, no more team to root for, no more roadtrips for a while,no more romebraves, no more dean, yunel, arthur, etc. its sad. im gonna be so totally bored. there's school, but it just reminds me that im a disorganized, lazy, bum, slob with no direction whatsoever in life. there's work. but yet again, i dont want to.
and...its august. its rainy and hurricainy. winter is coming. its gonna be cold and sad. thinking of winter brings me down.
i hope this is just late night sadness and that i'll be happier in the morning. my eyes are gonna totally hurt. later.