Already so busy it's scary
I really can't believe how crazy 2008 already is. Of course, that's probably because my darling school has already started back up. I really hoped I was finished with this early start nonsense...but on the bright side we're finished at the end of April.
I'm really struggling with being overwhelmed with everything I need to do: keep up with grad work, think about post-grad studies, find a job for this summer, find health insurance starting this summer, not go crazy...etc.
The grad work is going to be crazy but fun this semester. About the only thing that really scares me is that I'll be teaching a college music history class (one period) in March. Scary. These students are really smart and I don't feel really confident. I'm going to start researching the topic really soon. Right now for my own course work things don't look so bad. I'll have a lot of busy work but only a couple of big papers. I do hope to balance things better so that I'm not writing my major research papers in 4-6 hours.
I do have to find a job this summer (May-August) and it has to leave me time to make it to two weddings. Because otherwise I'll be getting evicted from my apartment in July...which would be sad since that is right before the new loan money will come in. But the loan money has to stretch farther next year since I have to pay for health insurance. Evidently my dad's health insurance is going to drop out from under me right when I turn 23, regardless of the fact that I am still neck deep in school.
The not go crazy thing may or may not happen. Sometimes I have so much to do that I feel like I'm drowning and other times I'm bored out of my mind. I really don't care for living by myself. It is not all it's cracked up to be. If people start telling you to try living by yourself...at least make sure you have lots of good friends really close by so they can break the tedium of eating by yourself in front of your television.
I'm really ready for some change. Which is weird...because grad school is a huge change from undergrad...and yet it isn't. It still seems a lot alike. The professors, students, and classes are different but the work is the same. So is the feeling that I'm just not sure I love this enough to go through with it to the highest level. I enjoy doing things but, I don't know. It's just hard to qualify...or quantify. Take your pick.
Part of the problem is that I feel so isolated. I don't mean to isolate myself from others but it seems to happen anyways. To those of you who know me in person: Do I come across as standoffish? I'm beginning to think I must but I don't know.
Ah well, I've got to shut-down and go give a library tour to freshman...if they show up.
Take care and let me hear from you!!!
I'm really struggling with being overwhelmed with everything I need to do: keep up with grad work, think about post-grad studies, find a job for this summer, find health insurance starting this summer, not go crazy...etc.
The grad work is going to be crazy but fun this semester. About the only thing that really scares me is that I'll be teaching a college music history class (one period) in March. Scary. These students are really smart and I don't feel really confident. I'm going to start researching the topic really soon. Right now for my own course work things don't look so bad. I'll have a lot of busy work but only a couple of big papers. I do hope to balance things better so that I'm not writing my major research papers in 4-6 hours.
I do have to find a job this summer (May-August) and it has to leave me time to make it to two weddings. Because otherwise I'll be getting evicted from my apartment in July...which would be sad since that is right before the new loan money will come in. But the loan money has to stretch farther next year since I have to pay for health insurance. Evidently my dad's health insurance is going to drop out from under me right when I turn 23, regardless of the fact that I am still neck deep in school.
The not go crazy thing may or may not happen. Sometimes I have so much to do that I feel like I'm drowning and other times I'm bored out of my mind. I really don't care for living by myself. It is not all it's cracked up to be. If people start telling you to try living by yourself...at least make sure you have lots of good friends really close by so they can break the tedium of eating by yourself in front of your television.
I'm really ready for some change. Which is weird...because grad school is a huge change from undergrad...and yet it isn't. It still seems a lot alike. The professors, students, and classes are different but the work is the same. So is the feeling that I'm just not sure I love this enough to go through with it to the highest level. I enjoy doing things but, I don't know. It's just hard to qualify...or quantify. Take your pick.
Part of the problem is that I feel so isolated. I don't mean to isolate myself from others but it seems to happen anyways. To those of you who know me in person: Do I come across as standoffish? I'm beginning to think I must but I don't know.
Ah well, I've got to shut-down and go give a library tour to freshman...if they show up.
Take care and let me hear from you!!!