attack of the panic

[butterflikssess]

i'm in this stage right now of my beautifully fucked up chemicalness where i feel alone. i hate when i get in this stage. because no matter who i talk to i still feel like shit. my dad talks to me but he always states the obvious. karl is not sympathetic. all my friends just tell me what i want to hear. lisa is the only person who makes me feel

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[rockstr_1]

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling that way. I find myself feeling the same ways sometimes. A lot more then usual. It's never fun. I know how you feel about the drugs too. God do I know! lol. I'm always around stuff and can easily get ahold of them but I can't seem to actually do it when it comes down to it... because of Gavin....thank goodness. I hope you feel better soon. Sounds like you need some well needed time to yourself to re-evaluate everything. Good luck.

Are we still on for Tuesday?

[butterflikssess]

i'm not sure about tuesday...going to alladins right? but you could come over here..and i have the stuff to make hummmus and fallafell...and i can get hotsauce..we'll see if kaidens better and i'm not exhausted from the dr's....
i had a good day today. karl and me drove up to chapel hill mall and we had a great day. i totally got hit on by this guy and f.y.e and karls like k lets get shirts with eachothers pictures on them so everyone will know hahhaa...it felt good to see him get jelous. and then i got hit on by this guy at the gas station but i didn't notice and he's like damn twice in one day!! haha that felt really good:)

[rockstr_1]

I could come over there if you want. You'd just have to put the cats away and vaccum.lol.
My allergies flare up realllyyy easily when its warm outside. i hate it! ugh.

Thats awesome that dudes were hitting on you (maybe not in Karl's eyes..lol). It does feel good to know that other people still find you attractive.. even if you are in a relationship. It gives us a little reassurance and lets us know that we still got it! hahaha. I'm glad your day was better! :)

I keep asking Heath to go do all these different things with me but his excuse is always "I have to work" or "Have fun w/ your friends". He's a lost cause. No use in trying anymore. However, when I do actually get up and go do something w/o him, he guilt trips the fuck out of me! It's annoying!!!!! Ugh. Men.

[butterflikssess]

i can do that...i'll vaccuum and put the cats away.ONLY FOR YOU!!
we'll have wine. if you want to get fallafell from sahara...and pick up hotsauce i'll make the hummus. my fallafell hasn't been turning out very well..i dont know why...hmmm...i can try though!!
what is up with you and heath?