yesterday
yesterday i got my hair done..i'm not sure how i feel about it yet...she said she had to cut some of my hair becuase the bleach and color still didn't take some of the black off the ends...but i think hairstylist get all caught up and addicted to the chop chop chop sound of the scizzors becuase she took like 5 inches off my hair!!! i've been trying so hard to grow it out...and she just cut like 8 months of hair off..so i was pretty sad...the color looks alright but i'm going to have to get it done in a couple months have it rebleached becuase after 2 applications of bleach i still have black in my hair...eventually i'm hoping my hair will grow long all the black will be out and i will have a pretty copper color in my hair...
also yesterday i had an appointment with my pyschiatrist he doubled my dose of wellbutrin and put me on lamictal ...right now i'm on this 5 week kit..which will eventually get me up to 200 mg. but last night i only had 25 ..and it knocked my ass out..like i had taken a tranquelizer..it was pretty neat..
and last night i had the best nights sleep i've had in a long time long time!...
this morning around 4 in the morning i had a past life dream. in this dream it became so clear to me why i feel so close to emily...i have alwasy thought that me and my daughter shared this really strong bond..if you saw us together you would completely understand...
in the dream i was emily. I had to very loving parents. my father was a general in the british army and my mother was an extremely beautifull socialite. i'm guessing i lived sometime in the 1700's.. i was about emilys age she is now, in the dream. its all a little foggy now..but basically we died in a housefire that was set by a radical group that hated my father becuase he was a leader in the military. i think we may have been living in england. but i'm not quite sure.
it all felt so real and so comfortable..and i remember waking up and imidiately i went and checked on emily becuase the dream was very vivid.
so thats all for now..i have a gazillion things to do before i go back to work. my 3 days off went by wayyyy to fast!!!
also yesterday i had an appointment with my pyschiatrist he doubled my dose of wellbutrin and put me on lamictal ...right now i'm on this 5 week kit..which will eventually get me up to 200 mg. but last night i only had 25 ..and it knocked my ass out..like i had taken a tranquelizer..it was pretty neat..
and last night i had the best nights sleep i've had in a long time long time!...
this morning around 4 in the morning i had a past life dream. in this dream it became so clear to me why i feel so close to emily...i have alwasy thought that me and my daughter shared this really strong bond..if you saw us together you would completely understand...
in the dream i was emily. I had to very loving parents. my father was a general in the british army and my mother was an extremely beautifull socialite. i'm guessing i lived sometime in the 1700's.. i was about emilys age she is now, in the dream. its all a little foggy now..but basically we died in a housefire that was set by a radical group that hated my father becuase he was a leader in the military. i think we may have been living in england. but i'm not quite sure.
it all felt so real and so comfortable..and i remember waking up and imidiately i went and checked on emily becuase the dream was very vivid.
so thats all for now..i have a gazillion things to do before i go back to work. my 3 days off went by wayyyy to fast!!!