Completely and Utterly Blank
Well, I went back to work and that was fun, yesterday I went in early to do somthing for one of the manager, but low and behold i didnt have to anyway,kinda made me angry knowing i could have slept a little longer or done somthing in that time frame. I closed also that night too, 10:30 in the morning to 11:30 at night. ugh. I chose to, but i was in a very helpfull mood. I dont want to do anything anymore, I just want to relax, I dont want to go anywhere, i just want to sit, and rest, but i cant sadly. My parents offered to help me get out of the house, they want me out, so they said they would help pay for a place to live, yay! Im putting an app in for a job at wendys to be an IT technician, it is said it pays well and they give us a company car, which isnt bad, somthing i am good at for a change, thank you. Then i can go to colleger and do the classes that i wanted to take, or if this permits ill stay. I was in a good mood today, just about until i got to go home, when i started to feel like shit, i kept shaking and was getting dizzy, freaking me out. Vanessa was mad because i wasnt smiling, but its sorta hard to smile when you think your going to pass out or somthing. I am behind on a payment, doh. I have to pay that shit tomorrow, its 2 days late, im not liking that. It needs to stop snowing, or somthing, i am getting sik of this weather, its making everyone sick again, I cant afford to be sick, i have no medical insurance, that reminds me, i need to turn that bad boy in for some medicaid woohooo!!!! Chris is coming back this weekend, yay, that bitch better call me, dont know what we will do, maybe figure somthing out, who knows. Other than that my life is still the same, I hate going over to vanessas house, scares me to be there, i dont like whats going on right now and i dont much appreciate the way things are done over there, but thats none of my business, i have no say in what they do, i just think its stupid whats going on over there, and they all need a freaking rude awakeing, but vanessa is scared and cass is a rebel, but enough talking about that, they will probably yell at me for saying these things, oh well. Back to my very very interesting life... oh wait it involves me trying to grow up, aint happening to well, ahhhh i wish someone could explain life to me, this sucks and im so lost to what to do or why i have these wierd feelings i have. Oh on a side note, vanessa says i have a profile of a serial killer, isnt that nice? Knowing you may become someone who killse multiple people, sounds like total fun ya? Long story on that one, has to deal with how i grew up i guess, thats what vanessa says. I think i am going to go downstairs and fold my clothes, take a shower, get in my pajamas and then hop in bed and wait for ness, i miss her and i was in a shitty mood, but i bet shes havinga good time at work now that the person who was down in the dumps is gone. Although i lack the motivation to get out of this chair and move, my foot kills to no extent of pain anyone has felt, it feels like someone is buring the inside of my ankle, and taking quick sharp stabs at it with a knife, sucks. Even when i walk on it, it feels as though someone took a knife and slit my akilies tendon and i want to fall to the floor. ugh. Enough bitching, leave me somthing so i know i am loved at one point in my life people. ahhhhhh