Hmmm
So, I haven't really written about this, I've had mixed feelings on the subject. I haven't wanted to write much lately.
No need to leave a paper trail, ha.
Whenever Billy's parents pick up Aisy it's so fucking awkward and forced.
Billy's dad is all business and his mom just ignores me and pretends I'm not there.
This has partially made me not want them to take Aisy, but they have a right to see their grandkid and I do enjoy the break.
Lots of other reasons for them to take her, but that's not the point.
The point is this:
Why is it so weird?
I started thinking about this and I realized, hey, they never got my side of the story.
They've only talked to Billy about what happened and I have no idea what's been said about me, or us, or anything.
I almost want to fix that, but what's the point?
Our issues aren't anyone else's business, but I'm guessing Billy has had some pretty nice things to say for them to act like I don't exist.
I would be curious though, if my son and his wife were getting divorced. If his wife moved out for no apparent reason.
I'd be interested to know what happened to make her leave.
I guess I've never understood them though, and it works both ways.
I don't know if Billy ever really understood either.
I don't know if he even realizes to this day why I left.
What happened?
I'm not even sure I know, completely.
I just hate that there's this big fog surrounding me and I'm not sure what's been said regarding me, I'm not sure if it's all been falsities or realities or half truths. Who knows?
Does it really matter?
It does matter for the simple fact that I demand to be respected.
Maybe that's what happened all along.
Hm.
//.stardust
No need to leave a paper trail, ha.
Whenever Billy's parents pick up Aisy it's so fucking awkward and forced.
Billy's dad is all business and his mom just ignores me and pretends I'm not there.
This has partially made me not want them to take Aisy, but they have a right to see their grandkid and I do enjoy the break.
Lots of other reasons for them to take her, but that's not the point.
The point is this:
Why is it so weird?
I started thinking about this and I realized, hey, they never got my side of the story.
They've only talked to Billy about what happened and I have no idea what's been said about me, or us, or anything.
I almost want to fix that, but what's the point?
Our issues aren't anyone else's business, but I'm guessing Billy has had some pretty nice things to say for them to act like I don't exist.
I would be curious though, if my son and his wife were getting divorced. If his wife moved out for no apparent reason.
I'd be interested to know what happened to make her leave.
I guess I've never understood them though, and it works both ways.
I don't know if Billy ever really understood either.
I don't know if he even realizes to this day why I left.
What happened?
I'm not even sure I know, completely.
I just hate that there's this big fog surrounding me and I'm not sure what's been said regarding me, I'm not sure if it's all been falsities or realities or half truths. Who knows?
Does it really matter?
It does matter for the simple fact that I demand to be respected.
Maybe that's what happened all along.
Hm.
//.stardust