Feeling Better about myself!
Well, It's been a crazy week! All of this week I've been so sick and having fevers every day this week. It's been really awful. Anyways, I gotta tell you something really interesting. Robert and I have almost broken up because of my obsession for Toyli. He told me that he wished that I would be almost as obsessed about him as I am about Toyli. He said he would give anything in the world for me to do that for him. I felt so bad. But, then he told me that if I would never feel like that about him, then he might as well just go now and leave me to my hurt and pain. It's been 2 months since we've started dating. And all I could do is cry over Toyli?! How pathetic he says. He does everything for me. Takes me to the movies, out to eat, gives me a shoulder to cry on when I need it, talks to me about how much God loves me, prays for me, prays with me...what better guy would do that for me? When Robert almost left me, I realized how much he really cared for me. I realized how I felt about him. I do have feelings for him but I have been fighting against them for 2 months. I would cover them up by sulking myself in Toyli all the time. But Robert opened my eyes because I took him for granted. I felt so bad when I realized that. So I've let Toyli go and let my passion grow for Robert.
The night after our argument over Toyli and our almost break-up, I got a really bad fever. Robert was at work at the time. I texted him and told him that I didn't feel good and that I had a fever. He wanted so badly to drop everything at work and just go home early just so that he could take care of me. He wanted to. I didn't even have to ask him! He just told me that that was what he wanted to do. But he needs that money and so he had to stay. Plus it was midnight and he didn't get off until 2 AM. He works so darn much at night that I wish that he would hurry up and find another job. He's constantly tired because his boss at the Salida Burger King makes him work from 10 pm to 6 am! He's been doing that for about a week now. God he's so frustrated with this work and I try so hard to stay up with him but me being sick, I can't do it. Or I would. This morning he called me at 6:30 when he got home from work. He told me he didn't remember even driving home! that's how tired he was! I was like: "Oh my God! Why didn't you call me? I would've kept you awake!" But he laughed and said it was okay because I took some night medicine to help me get a goodnight sleep because I'm so sick and he told me that I needed my rest. Well even with a sleeping pill, I didn't sleep very well last night. I never do when he's at work. Especially that late. I worry about him. I worry that he'd crash and that I'd never see him again afterwards.
Yesterday he came home at 6 am and he came and picked me up. Yes at that hour! Well I didn't get to see him until 7 because he worked overtime. But we went to his house for about 2 hours so that he could "sleep" lol. yeah, nobody was home at that hour because his parents are out of town until tonight. *chuckles* But then my mom calls us when we're dead asleep and asked where we were at 9 am. So we had to leave.
The night after our argument over Toyli and our almost break-up, I got a really bad fever. Robert was at work at the time. I texted him and told him that I didn't feel good and that I had a fever. He wanted so badly to drop everything at work and just go home early just so that he could take care of me. He wanted to. I didn't even have to ask him! He just told me that that was what he wanted to do. But he needs that money and so he had to stay. Plus it was midnight and he didn't get off until 2 AM. He works so darn much at night that I wish that he would hurry up and find another job. He's constantly tired because his boss at the Salida Burger King makes him work from 10 pm to 6 am! He's been doing that for about a week now. God he's so frustrated with this work and I try so hard to stay up with him but me being sick, I can't do it. Or I would. This morning he called me at 6:30 when he got home from work. He told me he didn't remember even driving home! that's how tired he was! I was like: "Oh my God! Why didn't you call me? I would've kept you awake!" But he laughed and said it was okay because I took some night medicine to help me get a goodnight sleep because I'm so sick and he told me that I needed my rest. Well even with a sleeping pill, I didn't sleep very well last night. I never do when he's at work. Especially that late. I worry about him. I worry that he'd crash and that I'd never see him again afterwards.
Yesterday he came home at 6 am and he came and picked me up. Yes at that hour! Well I didn't get to see him until 7 because he worked overtime. But we went to his house for about 2 hours so that he could "sleep" lol. yeah, nobody was home at that hour because his parents are out of town until tonight. *chuckles* But then my mom calls us when we're dead asleep and asked where we were at 9 am. So we had to leave.