[Fanfic] Missing Piece : Chapter 7
A week after the kissing incident, neither of them talked and said about it. And it scares him out, and it worried him that Ryo hates him. And he can’t take it, he doesn’t want him to get mad at him and avoid him forever.
“Shige… Shige!!!” Junno waved his hand over Shige’s face, until the guy turned to him absent-mindedly.
“What?”
“Shige, you’re been so spaced out since last week! What’s wrong with you?”
“Well, I… something’s bothering me… I think you might help me to deal with this… I guess…” he said stammering.
“What is it? I’ll help you to get over it. Its just not you Shige, you aren’t the happy Shige that I know.”
“It’s just… I’m afraid that Tomohisa’s twin brother, I mean it’s Ryo… last week we had an accidental kiss, we had said nothing about it. Demou, I’m scared that he might hate me. I can’t take that.”
“Shige, you don’t have to worry about it if it doesn’t mean anything to you, so you are bothering about it.” He advised his friend and pats his shoulder. “Do you have any feelings felt for him?” he asked afterwards.
Shige thought about it. He thought that there’s a meaning behind the kiss, but there’s no words after the kiss. That is something that’s bothering him, he doesn’t know if there are ‘romantic’ feelings inside him for Ryo. It can assure him, he felt weird, and he was hurt when his girlfriend cuddles and kisses him. Was it jealousy?
“I think you should think about that later on.”
“I guess so…” said Shige laughing weakly.
**
Ryo keeps on staring at his phone during his break time, and highlight his number, he’s going to call him or no?
He’s been bothered after that ‘accidental’ kiss. Shige didn’t say anything after the kiss. He wandered to call and ask him to go out and make his promise. He has to do this since he promised Shige and this was the reason that they did kiss.
Shige was his first kiss… on a guy.
He never can deny that Shige’s lips were very soft and addicting. But he has a girlfriend and he was soon to be married to the girl he loves.
This can’t be! Come on… that’s impossible. That’s not what I am thinking right now.
He admits that Shige changed a lot since the time they got separated. Shige was happier than before but there’s a feeling of solitude, mourning over Tomohisa’s death yet he was more interesting.
He promised his twin brother, Tomohisa, that he will look out for him until he gets better and protect him, if he stays over the hospital.
Not replacing him to Shige’s heart.
Loving a Kato Shigeaki is not on the options.
He sends a text message for Shige to know whether they still going out on the week end.
~~
1 month has passed since after the kiss and used to ignore it, and never mention it anymore. Shige recently got interested to photography. So his parents provide his own digital camera, his new possession.
And their presence was awkward than before but, they avoid touching their hands or either fingers.
It seems that Ryo got a confidence after a month, he asked him to have an overnight stay at his apartment. They bought a box of beer and such junk foods for their food trips.
“Shige?” called Ryo.
“Y-yes?” questions Shige.
“What do you like about my twin?” he asked with a curious looks on his face. He can’t tell if he was drunk or not.
“Tomohisa is a good man. A doctor who gave importance of life to me, he makes me feel special. He completes me even for a meanwhile. He gave my life a meaning.” He answers briefly.
“What about me?”
“You are such a down to earth. You’re like an angel who came from land to comfort me and helped me to stand on my own.” Shige’s face gets closer to Ryo’s their face was inch closer. Ryo didn’t want to lie anymore, he wanted to kiss Shige, pressed his lips against him in a gentle way. Their eyes uniformly closed as they meet their lips together, Shige’s heart beats so fast, it’s so good and yet, a sin. He loves Yamapi and now, he’s kissing with him, his twin brother. Ryo has a girlfriend and soon to be married, yet he’s kissing with a guy.
Their kiss become more eager, Shige’s hand reached his lap and placed himself as their kiss was more hungrier, Ryo didn’t feel this kind of feeling, just for Shige. He reached the hem of Shige’s shirt. He pulled away and blushing furiously, their hearts beating so fast in protest as they wanted to do more than that.
“I’m sorry.” Apologized Shige as he pulls away and made a distance, stopping his urges to do it once again.
“Sorry. I shouldn’t do that, let’s just forget it.”
Again. Thought Shige that left a pain on his heart, why does he used to ignore the fact? He kissed Shige and that was for no reason?
He was disappointed.
“Night.” Shige said as he left the room to the other room to rest, he locked up the door and throw himself on the bed as he cried.
Shige was really disappointed about it. He should give him a reason why he kissed him.
Is it just for nothing? For fun?
After the kiss that night… soon he just realized… before he slept with deep loneliness.
That night, he’s actually fallen in love with Nishikido Ryo.
~~
Ryo finally drank 3 cans of beer after what happed between him and Shige, he doesn’t know how to explain everything, and he was scared that everything he said will he regret in the end.
A tear flew on his eyes, he made Shige cry. Now, he can say that he’s attracted to him but, he’s still go and get married to his high school girlfriend which now be his future wife.
I made him cry, Pi. He smirked as he emptied his beer.
What if you’re still alive and tell you that I was attracted to your Shige, probably you will go and beat me up. I’m always like that, right? I like the person who you want but, you used to be good to me. Why? But, I seem to understand the thing that you like from Shige.
~~
Shige just sat on the soft fluffy bed, its colored in white. Was he in the hospital again? But, there was a tear in his eyes.
“Shige!” a familiar voice calls his name, sounds worried.
“Yamapi!” Shige runs as fast as he can and he hugged him very tight.
“There’s something wrong?” he asked.
“I don’t want to live anymore. Please let me stay with you, I want to be with you and we will be happy forever.” Shige cries, as Yamapi ruffles his hair.
“Why? Did you suddenly think that? What happened?”
“I just missed you.” Shige lied.
“Don’t lie to me, Shige. Tell me everything.”
“Sorry. I made a sin, definitely a mistake. I had an accidental kiss with Ryo but we used to forget it. But earlier, we did it, more. I stopped him when he reached the hem of my shirt. I feel like I betrayed you. Sorry Yamapi. I want to be with you so badly.”
“Tell me the truth, Shige… are you in love with him already?”
Shige finally nodded.
“I’m so sorry. I know that I shouldn’t. I can’t help it.”
“Shige, he’s about to get married to his girlfriend, you’re just hurting yourself. I always wanted you to be happy and unharmed.”
“You don’t hate me?”
“How could I? I gave you my life, I want you to be happy with your life and find someone who is going to love you to the fullest. I want to explore more with you, can you feel it? I’m always with you everywhere you go. But, you choose to love someone, I’m happy for you because you deserve someone to be loved more.” Whispers Yamapi to his ears, never let Shige to see his tears.
“I guess you don’t feel my presence.” Yamapi was disappointed.
“I’m sorry, I end up falling to your twin. I’ll just go and move on, away from him.”
“I didn’t tell you to go and forget him, if you love him, just show him that you do.” He sighed and he let Shige go from his embrace.
“I still always love you, I won’t forget you.” He smiled and kisses him before he left.
= END of CHAPTER 7 =
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“Shige… Shige!!!” Junno waved his hand over Shige’s face, until the guy turned to him absent-mindedly.
“What?”
“Shige, you’re been so spaced out since last week! What’s wrong with you?”
“Well, I… something’s bothering me… I think you might help me to deal with this… I guess…” he said stammering.
“What is it? I’ll help you to get over it. Its just not you Shige, you aren’t the happy Shige that I know.”
“It’s just… I’m afraid that Tomohisa’s twin brother, I mean it’s Ryo… last week we had an accidental kiss, we had said nothing about it. Demou, I’m scared that he might hate me. I can’t take that.”
“Shige, you don’t have to worry about it if it doesn’t mean anything to you, so you are bothering about it.” He advised his friend and pats his shoulder. “Do you have any feelings felt for him?” he asked afterwards.
Shige thought about it. He thought that there’s a meaning behind the kiss, but there’s no words after the kiss. That is something that’s bothering him, he doesn’t know if there are ‘romantic’ feelings inside him for Ryo. It can assure him, he felt weird, and he was hurt when his girlfriend cuddles and kisses him. Was it jealousy?
“I think you should think about that later on.”
“I guess so…” said Shige laughing weakly.
**
Ryo keeps on staring at his phone during his break time, and highlight his number, he’s going to call him or no?
He’s been bothered after that ‘accidental’ kiss. Shige didn’t say anything after the kiss. He wandered to call and ask him to go out and make his promise. He has to do this since he promised Shige and this was the reason that they did kiss.
Shige was his first kiss… on a guy.
He never can deny that Shige’s lips were very soft and addicting. But he has a girlfriend and he was soon to be married to the girl he loves.
This can’t be! Come on… that’s impossible. That’s not what I am thinking right now.
He admits that Shige changed a lot since the time they got separated. Shige was happier than before but there’s a feeling of solitude, mourning over Tomohisa’s death yet he was more interesting.
He promised his twin brother, Tomohisa, that he will look out for him until he gets better and protect him, if he stays over the hospital.
Not replacing him to Shige’s heart.
Loving a Kato Shigeaki is not on the options.
He sends a text message for Shige to know whether they still going out on the week end.
~~
1 month has passed since after the kiss and used to ignore it, and never mention it anymore. Shige recently got interested to photography. So his parents provide his own digital camera, his new possession.
And their presence was awkward than before but, they avoid touching their hands or either fingers.
It seems that Ryo got a confidence after a month, he asked him to have an overnight stay at his apartment. They bought a box of beer and such junk foods for their food trips.
“Shige?” called Ryo.
“Y-yes?” questions Shige.
“What do you like about my twin?” he asked with a curious looks on his face. He can’t tell if he was drunk or not.
“Tomohisa is a good man. A doctor who gave importance of life to me, he makes me feel special. He completes me even for a meanwhile. He gave my life a meaning.” He answers briefly.
“What about me?”
“You are such a down to earth. You’re like an angel who came from land to comfort me and helped me to stand on my own.” Shige’s face gets closer to Ryo’s their face was inch closer. Ryo didn’t want to lie anymore, he wanted to kiss Shige, pressed his lips against him in a gentle way. Their eyes uniformly closed as they meet their lips together, Shige’s heart beats so fast, it’s so good and yet, a sin. He loves Yamapi and now, he’s kissing with him, his twin brother. Ryo has a girlfriend and soon to be married, yet he’s kissing with a guy.
Their kiss become more eager, Shige’s hand reached his lap and placed himself as their kiss was more hungrier, Ryo didn’t feel this kind of feeling, just for Shige. He reached the hem of Shige’s shirt. He pulled away and blushing furiously, their hearts beating so fast in protest as they wanted to do more than that.
“I’m sorry.” Apologized Shige as he pulls away and made a distance, stopping his urges to do it once again.
“Sorry. I shouldn’t do that, let’s just forget it.”
Again. Thought Shige that left a pain on his heart, why does he used to ignore the fact? He kissed Shige and that was for no reason?
He was disappointed.
“Night.” Shige said as he left the room to the other room to rest, he locked up the door and throw himself on the bed as he cried.
Shige was really disappointed about it. He should give him a reason why he kissed him.
Is it just for nothing? For fun?
After the kiss that night… soon he just realized… before he slept with deep loneliness.
That night, he’s actually fallen in love with Nishikido Ryo.
~~
Ryo finally drank 3 cans of beer after what happed between him and Shige, he doesn’t know how to explain everything, and he was scared that everything he said will he regret in the end.
A tear flew on his eyes, he made Shige cry. Now, he can say that he’s attracted to him but, he’s still go and get married to his high school girlfriend which now be his future wife.
I made him cry, Pi. He smirked as he emptied his beer.
What if you’re still alive and tell you that I was attracted to your Shige, probably you will go and beat me up. I’m always like that, right? I like the person who you want but, you used to be good to me. Why? But, I seem to understand the thing that you like from Shige.
~~
Shige just sat on the soft fluffy bed, its colored in white. Was he in the hospital again? But, there was a tear in his eyes.
“Shige!” a familiar voice calls his name, sounds worried.
“Yamapi!” Shige runs as fast as he can and he hugged him very tight.
“There’s something wrong?” he asked.
“I don’t want to live anymore. Please let me stay with you, I want to be with you and we will be happy forever.” Shige cries, as Yamapi ruffles his hair.
“Why? Did you suddenly think that? What happened?”
“I just missed you.” Shige lied.
“Don’t lie to me, Shige. Tell me everything.”
“Sorry. I made a sin, definitely a mistake. I had an accidental kiss with Ryo but we used to forget it. But earlier, we did it, more. I stopped him when he reached the hem of my shirt. I feel like I betrayed you. Sorry Yamapi. I want to be with you so badly.”
“Tell me the truth, Shige… are you in love with him already?”
Shige finally nodded.
“I’m so sorry. I know that I shouldn’t. I can’t help it.”
“Shige, he’s about to get married to his girlfriend, you’re just hurting yourself. I always wanted you to be happy and unharmed.”
“You don’t hate me?”
“How could I? I gave you my life, I want you to be happy with your life and find someone who is going to love you to the fullest. I want to explore more with you, can you feel it? I’m always with you everywhere you go. But, you choose to love someone, I’m happy for you because you deserve someone to be loved more.” Whispers Yamapi to his ears, never let Shige to see his tears.
“I guess you don’t feel my presence.” Yamapi was disappointed.
“I’m sorry, I end up falling to your twin. I’ll just go and move on, away from him.”
“I didn’t tell you to go and forget him, if you love him, just show him that you do.” He sighed and he let Shige go from his embrace.
“I still always love you, I won’t forget you.” He smiled and kisses him before he left.
= END of CHAPTER 7 =
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