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ok so ive come to find out that the reason i really havent been able fall in love with anyone is because im still in love with someone else its been about a year now when is it going to end he broke up with his ex gf today i was suppose to get married friday i couldnt do it. ive noticed over time how whenever something reminds me of him id smile or just think man i was actualy kind of happy...then i wonder will i ever feel that way again? and from who all ive dated i really havent. ive never had such a lost feeling in my life. i really dont know what to do i mean i refuse to break nates heart he cares about me to much. and i broke lennys heart to be with nate. geez im not one that is good with drama. im really not. (hints why i never have any drama around me) but this is just something that seems like it keeps growing and growing. i mean i dont think i would ever get back with my ex but theres just feelings that i cant get to go away.