10 years on Livejournal!!
Seems like quite a few people on my flist are celebrating the 10-years lj-versary these last couple of months. I am very happy to have been around for so long, and to have met you all. So grateful for having had you here to read and write with. 10 years pass and what have we done? Where did all that time go? Kind of wonderful to be able to check out the old posts, timetravel in your own life. but oh how I cringe when I read my old posts from 2003, so long ago, yet so near.
I have been far too absent from lj/dreamwidth in the last six months. I miss my sony xperia phone, that little keyboard was made for writing lj-updates, and I am so happy I had it though the awful days of 2011. Why don't they sell any good smartphones with qwerty-keyboards in Sweden? My problems, so big.
I miss writing updates more regularly, I miss writing anything at all. I just read and read and read on my tablet, and the phone, and it's so passive. And I can't really sit and write in front of dad's computer during the night watches, since you hear the keyboard in practically the whole flat. Also, I HATE writing stuff on the smartscreen, it never works as it's supposed to,and I can't see the whole text.
These are minor problems, don't know if I would have so much more to update with IF I actually had that perfect device..
Things continue here much as before. Dad is doing tolerable. He's had a lot of extra phlegm during the last few weeks, which has made both nights and mornings quite difficult. I've been arguing with my sister about our situation, and I still haven't been able to go down to Lund for some much needed rest. Haven't been back home since early December. My sister was there for a few days in early January, but when she came back she was full of zealous arguments about how we have to fix EVERYTHING before I leave, and naturally that won't happen for a while. And then her shoulder started acting up and she's on sick-leave now, and can't work.. so I am doing 18-hour days.. or rather nights, until my brother can come and do a few nights again next week.. oh joy.
But she IS right about some of those "EVERYTHING" things. We DO really need to sort out some extra staff. Had an interview tonight with a guy that might be able to do some hours, but that also means that my sister and I will have to cut back on our own paid hours, and just end up doing more unpaid work.. but still.. might help a little in the long round.
What we really want is that instead of having the external help five times á day from the council, there would be two people working with dad full-time during the days, and one person on full-time nights. At the moment we don't get a regular salary for the night-watches anyway, since dad has something called "sleeping watch nights" but with dad's changed condition that doesn't work! You can't sleep anymore while watching dad, you have to be around to check the feeding tube, to see if he's breathing properly or if we need to move him, or if the phlegm is acting up..
The problem is that the welfare system doesn't work as well for people over 65, and dad can't get more hours of personal assistance/care-giving. Or maybe he possibly could, if they read the law in the way we think they should, even if that practically never happends. He had such horrible bad luck with the accident at the hospital happening just a few weeks AFTER his 65th birthday. HAD it all taken place say six months earlier it would be a completely different situation..
So this is what we're working on at the moment. Trying to get help with applying for special cases, and arguing with the council and just finding a way for it all to work. My sister and I are SO tired, and can't go on indefinitely like this. We need to cut back on the hours and get on with our lives, but we also REALLY need to ensure that dad is taken care of in the way he needs. It's so difficult to make it all work, financially, socially, spatially etc etc...
All this means that we're walking on eggshells, and keep fighting over stupid things. I KNOW I need a week away from it all, but when can I POSSIBLY get that time? Who will do my hour? When on earth will my sister feel well enough to let me leave? And of course I could be a bitch and just buy a ticket, but then I'd just leave dad in the ditch, and that's the last thing he needs! Maybe if we get the new guys going just a little, they might be able to work some extra hours and then I can go away for a week.. in March? Oh I don't know.
I haven't been able to go to the cinema, still haven't seen neither Skyfall nor the Hobbit. The ONLY book I read in January was PD James's Death Comes to Pemberley, which was fun but somewhat disappointing. It made me wish for some really good Anne de Bourgh fanfiction, but I still haven't had time to go look for it. I have read some Teen Wolf fanfic though, instead of Regencies I suppose. And also scrolled through tumblr far too often. But as I said, it is so very passive. I don't feel like posting anything there. It moves far to quickly, you miss so much in just a day. I want to come back to lj/dreamwidth, to write and comment and see what happends here in the slightly slower pace.. and I need to check out those friending memes that were going around a couple of weeks ago, to see what people are talking about nowadays-
Up for another 10 years? Who knows. If the platform is here, probably. So much unfulfilled potential that needs to be acted on. My poor idealistic self of ten years ago wouldn't feel quite happy about my life at present. Neither am I, but it has to be done and lived..
I have been far too absent from lj/dreamwidth in the last six months. I miss my sony xperia phone, that little keyboard was made for writing lj-updates, and I am so happy I had it though the awful days of 2011. Why don't they sell any good smartphones with qwerty-keyboards in Sweden? My problems, so big.
I miss writing updates more regularly, I miss writing anything at all. I just read and read and read on my tablet, and the phone, and it's so passive. And I can't really sit and write in front of dad's computer during the night watches, since you hear the keyboard in practically the whole flat. Also, I HATE writing stuff on the smartscreen, it never works as it's supposed to,and I can't see the whole text.
These are minor problems, don't know if I would have so much more to update with IF I actually had that perfect device..
Things continue here much as before. Dad is doing tolerable. He's had a lot of extra phlegm during the last few weeks, which has made both nights and mornings quite difficult. I've been arguing with my sister about our situation, and I still haven't been able to go down to Lund for some much needed rest. Haven't been back home since early December. My sister was there for a few days in early January, but when she came back she was full of zealous arguments about how we have to fix EVERYTHING before I leave, and naturally that won't happen for a while. And then her shoulder started acting up and she's on sick-leave now, and can't work.. so I am doing 18-hour days.. or rather nights, until my brother can come and do a few nights again next week.. oh joy.
But she IS right about some of those "EVERYTHING" things. We DO really need to sort out some extra staff. Had an interview tonight with a guy that might be able to do some hours, but that also means that my sister and I will have to cut back on our own paid hours, and just end up doing more unpaid work.. but still.. might help a little in the long round.
What we really want is that instead of having the external help five times á day from the council, there would be two people working with dad full-time during the days, and one person on full-time nights. At the moment we don't get a regular salary for the night-watches anyway, since dad has something called "sleeping watch nights" but with dad's changed condition that doesn't work! You can't sleep anymore while watching dad, you have to be around to check the feeding tube, to see if he's breathing properly or if we need to move him, or if the phlegm is acting up..
The problem is that the welfare system doesn't work as well for people over 65, and dad can't get more hours of personal assistance/care-giving. Or maybe he possibly could, if they read the law in the way we think they should, even if that practically never happends. He had such horrible bad luck with the accident at the hospital happening just a few weeks AFTER his 65th birthday. HAD it all taken place say six months earlier it would be a completely different situation..
So this is what we're working on at the moment. Trying to get help with applying for special cases, and arguing with the council and just finding a way for it all to work. My sister and I are SO tired, and can't go on indefinitely like this. We need to cut back on the hours and get on with our lives, but we also REALLY need to ensure that dad is taken care of in the way he needs. It's so difficult to make it all work, financially, socially, spatially etc etc...
All this means that we're walking on eggshells, and keep fighting over stupid things. I KNOW I need a week away from it all, but when can I POSSIBLY get that time? Who will do my hour? When on earth will my sister feel well enough to let me leave? And of course I could be a bitch and just buy a ticket, but then I'd just leave dad in the ditch, and that's the last thing he needs! Maybe if we get the new guys going just a little, they might be able to work some extra hours and then I can go away for a week.. in March? Oh I don't know.
I haven't been able to go to the cinema, still haven't seen neither Skyfall nor the Hobbit. The ONLY book I read in January was PD James's Death Comes to Pemberley, which was fun but somewhat disappointing. It made me wish for some really good Anne de Bourgh fanfiction, but I still haven't had time to go look for it. I have read some Teen Wolf fanfic though, instead of Regencies I suppose. And also scrolled through tumblr far too often. But as I said, it is so very passive. I don't feel like posting anything there. It moves far to quickly, you miss so much in just a day. I want to come back to lj/dreamwidth, to write and comment and see what happends here in the slightly slower pace.. and I need to check out those friending memes that were going around a couple of weeks ago, to see what people are talking about nowadays-
Up for another 10 years? Who knows. If the platform is here, probably. So much unfulfilled potential that needs to be acted on. My poor idealistic self of ten years ago wouldn't feel quite happy about my life at present. Neither am I, but it has to be done and lived..