it's been a long time
haven't updated in a while
i think i pissed off cody
i didn't mean to but i think i might have
and god i hope i didn't
i've already been such a fucking horrid bitch to him already
he's a cool kid
hung out with wess max and morales (s) today, had fun with different types of smoke.....
then max left
and a while after wess left and god i was saddened
then me and sarah met up with mickey and laura
then we all ran into jillness bridget katie ross trent fish
lauren casey and hannah
i kept telling lauren and hannah that i loved the other one more
it was real funny
i also got to talk with marsha and molly in study hall today
all in all today was pretty hot
and my dad, having just come back from a two and a half hour meeting with buchanen *sp?* and foster
and the rest of my teachers
he came back telling me i was really intelligent
when the night before i was a stupid fat and ugly fuck
and that my teachers really love me and are worried about me
which i know they don't and i know most of them suck
he said they saw blood on my arms and got worried
they shouldn't be worried
they should ignore that shit
and not tell my dad
my dad knows everything by the way
bridget -- you know my ''weekend saga''? he knows all of that too.... damn the contents of the garbage cans
he's taken a different look on me
i haven't figured out what it's essence is yet but when i do i'll update and share
by now wess is the only thing that makes me really truely and brightly smile
he called me beautiful and sexy
and even hearing those lies from him made me cringe
when i got home i cried
i don't understand why people think that will make me satisfied with myself
i know they're lying so why don't they just give up
oh well
i won't continue on that
don't need to waste my thoughts
i'm gonna go experiment with more types of smoke
have fun kids
cae
i think i pissed off cody
i didn't mean to but i think i might have
and god i hope i didn't
i've already been such a fucking horrid bitch to him already
he's a cool kid
hung out with wess max and morales (s) today, had fun with different types of smoke.....
then max left
and a while after wess left and god i was saddened
then me and sarah met up with mickey and laura
then we all ran into jillness bridget katie ross trent fish
lauren casey and hannah
i kept telling lauren and hannah that i loved the other one more
it was real funny
i also got to talk with marsha and molly in study hall today
all in all today was pretty hot
and my dad, having just come back from a two and a half hour meeting with buchanen *sp?* and foster
and the rest of my teachers
he came back telling me i was really intelligent
when the night before i was a stupid fat and ugly fuck
and that my teachers really love me and are worried about me
which i know they don't and i know most of them suck
he said they saw blood on my arms and got worried
they shouldn't be worried
they should ignore that shit
and not tell my dad
my dad knows everything by the way
bridget -- you know my ''weekend saga''? he knows all of that too.... damn the contents of the garbage cans
he's taken a different look on me
i haven't figured out what it's essence is yet but when i do i'll update and share
by now wess is the only thing that makes me really truely and brightly smile
he called me beautiful and sexy
and even hearing those lies from him made me cringe
when i got home i cried
i don't understand why people think that will make me satisfied with myself
i know they're lying so why don't they just give up
oh well
i won't continue on that
don't need to waste my thoughts
i'm gonna go experiment with more types of smoke
have fun kids
cae