My Broken Heart
... is broken again. Stupid boys. They do this to me on purpose i swear. last night Mike was supposed to go out with some of his friends but he said he'd only be an hour and he wasnt drinking. Two hours later I called and he was still there.. thats when I stopped waiting up for him and went to bed. Yea I cried myself to sleep again over a boy, stupid me. But going to bed didnt help cause i drempt about it only my family was there and he was there and it was this big awful mess with people choosing sides and i remember crying hysterically in my dream not once but twice... Im in such a daze right now and dont know how to really feel. I though with David that I had learned not to count on boys. David never was where he said hed be and he never ended up doing what he said he would. And it hurt a lot. I got stood up more in that relationship then I actually went out on dates. And now I am with Mike and his goal is supposively to just treat me better. Whenever hes in New York and Im home in Maryland we are supposed to call and talk to each other before bed and all this sweet lovey dovey stuff. But I cant count the amount of times where hes not there and he doesnt answer cause hes out with his friends.... cause hes out with his friends. Just like last night. Who was I kidding that I could find prince charming? And the whole thing about the boy you love should never make you cry... well thats a load of crap, cause every boy you get close to is bound make you cry, a lot.