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If i could close my eyes and forget everyone thats ever hurt me, everyone thats ever betrayed me.. if i could somehow trust again i would. Im trying, im trying so hard. but theres nothing i could say because it feels like my life is out in the open.. and for once i wanna be someone else.. its always been about playing victim.. its always been about just me, i admit that... and now that yer different, you're so different.. I know im the bad guy, im the one whois hurting you.. and i don't wanna play victim, the part doesn't suit me right. Yes i was blind to everyone else's pain, because i didn't wanna see what i caused.. i was too hurt.. to see they'res.. I've been selfish. But you're so different.. i promise. I love you.. so much, i love you. Thats why.. im struggling to be different.