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I failed again.
That house that was still haunted. We got them out and I let them peek in for a moment. "Let" because I wasn't vigilant.
I'm not starting over, not after this far, I'm just starting again.
34 days of freedom, just a moment of failure doesn't wipe them away.
I'm sorry and I feel terrible. I need you to know because I need you to be able to hold on to me even when I'm dirty. I'll do the same for you.
I am making habits and OCD plans and they've been structured an unadultured until today. Why it was different? Out of sight out of mind. I wasn't ready to fight.
I'll be better.
I hate telling.
But I have to because it hurts, because I know it's not right.
I know you'll love me through this. I'm not afraid of losing it. But I don't want you to have to. I'll beat this, we'll beat this. I know. I know.
That house that was still haunted. We got them out and I let them peek in for a moment. "Let" because I wasn't vigilant.
I'm not starting over, not after this far, I'm just starting again.
34 days of freedom, just a moment of failure doesn't wipe them away.
I'm sorry and I feel terrible. I need you to know because I need you to be able to hold on to me even when I'm dirty. I'll do the same for you.
I am making habits and OCD plans and they've been structured an unadultured until today. Why it was different? Out of sight out of mind. I wasn't ready to fight.
I'll be better.
I hate telling.
But I have to because it hurts, because I know it's not right.
I know you'll love me through this. I'm not afraid of losing it. But I don't want you to have to. I'll beat this, we'll beat this. I know. I know.