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Usually this is one of my vices.
But I feel like it's becoming one of my freedoms.
[Last night]
Dreams and forests
they seem safe but their chains break
just like mine always do
but it wasn't ruined
and neither am I.
The lifeguard conducted a poolside romance
that's how I'll always remember
the call button diffuser
"I caught you"
and I've been saved ever since.
It was a night of firsts
and we have no intention of ending
I'll never look when I say I won't
But someday I want you to want me to.
And I'll climb it, even if it's impossible,
find her in the dark.
Thank you for the dinosaurs, the whiteboard
And. The. Closeness.
I feel infinite with you.
I want better words.
I want better words.
I want better words.
I want better words.
I want better words.
[This morning]
I don't know how to explain how I feel, and I didn't have to because He understands me in His infinity. I fell apart in the good way and I showed Him who I have been and who I am (like He didn't know... but it's different having them show you even if you know, it's trust) and now He can put me back together the right way. Jesse kept crying for me and he hugged me for a long time and I knew he had been fighting for me. Kevin couldn't stop saying IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou and I knew he did. Kermit prayed for me and my whole body was a recipe and I was finally turning into something delicious. It wasn't just me though, everyone was praying for everyone but I was different today and people could tell.
You are an integral part in all of this.
I know you don't know Him but I don't know who created poetry and it still affects and moves me.
Yes. That.
You're more of yourself on the floor.
But I feel like it's becoming one of my freedoms.
[Last night]
Dreams and forests
they seem safe but their chains break
just like mine always do
but it wasn't ruined
and neither am I.
The lifeguard conducted a poolside romance
that's how I'll always remember
the call button diffuser
"I caught you"
and I've been saved ever since.
It was a night of firsts
and we have no intention of ending
I'll never look when I say I won't
But someday I want you to want me to.
And I'll climb it, even if it's impossible,
find her in the dark.
Thank you for the dinosaurs, the whiteboard
And. The. Closeness.
I feel infinite with you.
I want better words.
I want better words.
I want better words.
I want better words.
I want better words.
[This morning]
I don't know how to explain how I feel, and I didn't have to because He understands me in His infinity. I fell apart in the good way and I showed Him who I have been and who I am (like He didn't know... but it's different having them show you even if you know, it's trust) and now He can put me back together the right way. Jesse kept crying for me and he hugged me for a long time and I knew he had been fighting for me. Kevin couldn't stop saying IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou and I knew he did. Kermit prayed for me and my whole body was a recipe and I was finally turning into something delicious. It wasn't just me though, everyone was praying for everyone but I was different today and people could tell.
You are an integral part in all of this.
I know you don't know Him but I don't know who created poetry and it still affects and moves me.
Yes. That.
You're more of yourself on the floor.