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It's been a while, no?
Well, I'm back! How could I stay away? (and stay mentally healthy?)
I'm a second grade teacher now! I earned my Masters in Elementary Education in May. I ... hate it. Not the kids - I love the kids! I like teaching. But I hate the bureaucratic BS. I hate not ever having free time - not that I don't take it, because damn - it's MY life. But it means I'm not as good of a teacher as I could be. Which to me means - either I need to sacrifice myself for the job, or sacrifice the job. So the job goes. 7.5 months until summer. It's a countdown. Then I'll job search like a mofo. I don't care if it's a boring office job - as long as it pays enough so that I can support myself and when I punch out it's done, I'll be happy. I'm hoping. I hope I can find a job I like, otherwise...? Doomed to unhappiness?
Dating life? A mess. Single as of a few months ago. I loved the guy, but he was going through a rough period at work and punished me for it. Not physically of course, but definitely mentally and emotionally. He would ditch on me to be with his friends regularly, and when I did see him we'd have to hang out with his friends. He stopped the physical relationship (wtf!). He would tell me I was annoying and irresponsible, etc. I put up with it for as long as I could, told him multiple times it was getting hard for me, and in the end I had to walk away. Of course after I broke up with him he sang a different tune. So sorry, so sorry. So late. He's still trying though - last night he texted me and told me he missed me and that we should move to Raleigh, NC together. Seriously? No. Part of it is my fault - last time we talked, I said that IF we ever got back together, it wouldn't be for a long time and I'd have to be certain he'd changed. Part of it though is he heard what he wanted to. Now he's back to texting non-stop and asking what I'm doing, where am I, who am I with, etc. I ignore most of it.
My rebound guy was beautiful, and a total douche. He asked me to be his girlfriend and then said we'd moved too quickly. Last I ever heard from him was when I said 'We need to have a serious talk' (because he'd only see me on Friday nights) and he said 'I'll call you back in 10 minutes.' Ha! Aren't guys lovely?
I've seen another guy a few times since the end of Rebound. I like him, which makes me really afraid that it will turn to shit pretty quickly. Is that normal? Or am I slightly neurotic? He didn't text me last night which makes me nervous. Now, I know - that's totally normal. You don't have to talk to each other every day, especially when you aren't 'seriously' dating. (What makes it serious? I've never understood that. I feel like I'm always serious- or I wouldn't bother.) I just wish he had texted. Or - OMG, dare I ask it? - called. Sometimes I wish texting didn't exist. I miss phone calls. I have plans with him tonight, so hopefully they're still on! We'll see!
Well, I'm back! How could I stay away? (and stay mentally healthy?)
I'm a second grade teacher now! I earned my Masters in Elementary Education in May. I ... hate it. Not the kids - I love the kids! I like teaching. But I hate the bureaucratic BS. I hate not ever having free time - not that I don't take it, because damn - it's MY life. But it means I'm not as good of a teacher as I could be. Which to me means - either I need to sacrifice myself for the job, or sacrifice the job. So the job goes. 7.5 months until summer. It's a countdown. Then I'll job search like a mofo. I don't care if it's a boring office job - as long as it pays enough so that I can support myself and when I punch out it's done, I'll be happy. I'm hoping. I hope I can find a job I like, otherwise...? Doomed to unhappiness?
Dating life? A mess. Single as of a few months ago. I loved the guy, but he was going through a rough period at work and punished me for it. Not physically of course, but definitely mentally and emotionally. He would ditch on me to be with his friends regularly, and when I did see him we'd have to hang out with his friends. He stopped the physical relationship (wtf!). He would tell me I was annoying and irresponsible, etc. I put up with it for as long as I could, told him multiple times it was getting hard for me, and in the end I had to walk away. Of course after I broke up with him he sang a different tune. So sorry, so sorry. So late. He's still trying though - last night he texted me and told me he missed me and that we should move to Raleigh, NC together. Seriously? No. Part of it is my fault - last time we talked, I said that IF we ever got back together, it wouldn't be for a long time and I'd have to be certain he'd changed. Part of it though is he heard what he wanted to. Now he's back to texting non-stop and asking what I'm doing, where am I, who am I with, etc. I ignore most of it.
My rebound guy was beautiful, and a total douche. He asked me to be his girlfriend and then said we'd moved too quickly. Last I ever heard from him was when I said 'We need to have a serious talk' (because he'd only see me on Friday nights) and he said 'I'll call you back in 10 minutes.' Ha! Aren't guys lovely?
I've seen another guy a few times since the end of Rebound. I like him, which makes me really afraid that it will turn to shit pretty quickly. Is that normal? Or am I slightly neurotic? He didn't text me last night which makes me nervous. Now, I know - that's totally normal. You don't have to talk to each other every day, especially when you aren't 'seriously' dating. (What makes it serious? I've never understood that. I feel like I'm always serious- or I wouldn't bother.) I just wish he had texted. Or - OMG, dare I ask it? - called. Sometimes I wish texting didn't exist. I miss phone calls. I have plans with him tonight, so hopefully they're still on! We'll see!