Pretty snazzy weekend..
Well i had one pretty awsome weekend...I got home thursday at my old house and i was pretty happy to be home..I miss walking down the street and just seeing people and meeting people..But like i said..I got back to the empty apartment i call my house and was so tired i feel asleep..So friday came and i went to my old school wich i thought was...Quite funny..I saw my friends and some people i didn't want to see.Well after 3rd lunch was over i went home and relaxed for a while..Just hit me up and asked me to come crash at his hizzy and i said shure.Well we went to his brother's local show and there in a band called "BlueSKYEnvy" There accually...FUCKIN SICK..Darrel is one of the best drummers i have seen in my life.
Well the show was insane...Justin and i started every mosh pit..we went all out hardcore at that show..And then this rad ska band came on..And i did the charelston about 40 times o_0...it was hilarious and i even started 2 ska lines..In some way i felt like the leader that night....Anyways somwhere around the last 30 min of the show everyone one by one started to get hurt.I got this unbelieveably painful charlie horse that still WILL NOT GO AWAY..It hurts when i get up and if i try to run..So I was so stressed about some things when we got home so justin and i did some shit..and in about 13 seconds...i was completely mellow..lol.Well laying down to bed he wanted me to pick a cd to listen to while i sleep..I was like that's snazzy he listens to music while in bed..So i picked something that cought my eye...Smile empty soul..Im not a mainstream kinda guy as most of you know..but that was special to me....I couldn't really sleep listeing to it beacuse i was smiling every six seconds..Thinking of someone.Well saturday morning i woke up and geeze were Justin and i fuckin sore.It was mostly from the show but also from this retarted pain infliscting game but it was sweet....I mean we could barely move. But, We managaed.^_^ So i went home for my birthday dinner wich was nice..I had philly cheese steaks..those are my fav's ^_^ but yeah then we went to the movies saw van hellsing blah blah blah..the rest of it is pretty boring..But i did get to see andrew agian wich really really made me feel alot better..beacuse we missed each other alot.Speaking of wich on saturday night after the movies we met up with an old friend of mine Aaron.He used to play guitar in my band but i thought he dropped..But good news he's down for being in my band agian so im pretty stoked.
So im still sore and i want to cut off my arms and legs and even though i had one of the best weekends of my life...I still feel so.....empty.
Everone is telling me i don't seem like myself..i don't know what is wrong..I feel likae maybe there is but i can't fight something im unaware is there....
I just feel that sometimes the things i say...mean nothing..To anyone..espically myself..
Hold me beacuse i feel like letting go...I miss you and i love you...
Well the show was insane...Justin and i started every mosh pit..we went all out hardcore at that show..And then this rad ska band came on..And i did the charelston about 40 times o_0...it was hilarious and i even started 2 ska lines..In some way i felt like the leader that night....Anyways somwhere around the last 30 min of the show everyone one by one started to get hurt.I got this unbelieveably painful charlie horse that still WILL NOT GO AWAY..It hurts when i get up and if i try to run..So I was so stressed about some things when we got home so justin and i did some shit..and in about 13 seconds...i was completely mellow..lol.Well laying down to bed he wanted me to pick a cd to listen to while i sleep..I was like that's snazzy he listens to music while in bed..So i picked something that cought my eye...Smile empty soul..Im not a mainstream kinda guy as most of you know..but that was special to me....I couldn't really sleep listeing to it beacuse i was smiling every six seconds..Thinking of someone.Well saturday morning i woke up and geeze were Justin and i fuckin sore.It was mostly from the show but also from this retarted pain infliscting game but it was sweet....I mean we could barely move. But, We managaed.^_^ So i went home for my birthday dinner wich was nice..I had philly cheese steaks..those are my fav's ^_^ but yeah then we went to the movies saw van hellsing blah blah blah..the rest of it is pretty boring..But i did get to see andrew agian wich really really made me feel alot better..beacuse we missed each other alot.Speaking of wich on saturday night after the movies we met up with an old friend of mine Aaron.He used to play guitar in my band but i thought he dropped..But good news he's down for being in my band agian so im pretty stoked.
So im still sore and i want to cut off my arms and legs and even though i had one of the best weekends of my life...I still feel so.....empty.
Everone is telling me i don't seem like myself..i don't know what is wrong..I feel likae maybe there is but i can't fight something im unaware is there....
I just feel that sometimes the things i say...mean nothing..To anyone..espically myself..
Hold me beacuse i feel like letting go...I miss you and i love you...