Starting over for the millionth time...
Of course I exaggerate, I don't think I've lived so long to begin life anew so many times. I find myself somewhat humbled of late though. Both by the lack of interest many people carry for this internet platform and by recent turn of event. A continual renewal of entries by a select few people on the friends list causes me to wonder as to where everyone has gone. Whether from livejournal onto such things as Myspace and Facebook or from my own circle of friendship.
I would like to say right now I'M SORRY FOR ANYTHING I MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE DONE TO DISCOURAGE OUR PAST FRIENDSHIP. I guess this applies to no one and everyone, in that sort of sad poetic sense.
With that said, another attempt to enter the complexity of my mind along with a search to understand human society. Well, maybe not all of humanity, but that of America.
I left for awhile. Home, job, girlfriend, friends, worries. An escape took me onto a binge of self-reestablishment along with a trashing of my body. Bloated and tired I find myself returned, hoping to find my focus again, for I am easily distracted.
South Carolina. Days and Nights in heat and humidity. Leaping unprotected into murky waters, drowning in my mindscape, only to kick myself back up to surface. I cleansed myself in water unfit to bathe in. I swam, skied, tubed, and wakeboarded in that lake of forgetfulness only to spend evenings full of memory with family memebers often left forgotten. I ate constantly if only to take up time. Work had previously filled my days and in my excess time I sought something to preclude boredom.
Eating no longer as a necessity but an activity. The American idea that activity as often as not centers around food. On dates we go get lunch, dinner, or dessert. We grab snacks at movies and high calorie drinks as we work out. With this high caloric intake comes the stream of information force fed to us everyday. News, sports, dramas, comedies, and cartoons all bringing thousands of tidbits of information to humans every second of every day. America stands out in excess and its up to individuals to find moderation.
So here I put it. Live, to those that want to read it. My own search for moderation in my life. Perhaps a new me, or perhaps just the same idle talk I've said so many times.
I would like to say right now I'M SORRY FOR ANYTHING I MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE DONE TO DISCOURAGE OUR PAST FRIENDSHIP. I guess this applies to no one and everyone, in that sort of sad poetic sense.
With that said, another attempt to enter the complexity of my mind along with a search to understand human society. Well, maybe not all of humanity, but that of America.
I left for awhile. Home, job, girlfriend, friends, worries. An escape took me onto a binge of self-reestablishment along with a trashing of my body. Bloated and tired I find myself returned, hoping to find my focus again, for I am easily distracted.
South Carolina. Days and Nights in heat and humidity. Leaping unprotected into murky waters, drowning in my mindscape, only to kick myself back up to surface. I cleansed myself in water unfit to bathe in. I swam, skied, tubed, and wakeboarded in that lake of forgetfulness only to spend evenings full of memory with family memebers often left forgotten. I ate constantly if only to take up time. Work had previously filled my days and in my excess time I sought something to preclude boredom.
Eating no longer as a necessity but an activity. The American idea that activity as often as not centers around food. On dates we go get lunch, dinner, or dessert. We grab snacks at movies and high calorie drinks as we work out. With this high caloric intake comes the stream of information force fed to us everyday. News, sports, dramas, comedies, and cartoons all bringing thousands of tidbits of information to humans every second of every day. America stands out in excess and its up to individuals to find moderation.
So here I put it. Live, to those that want to read it. My own search for moderation in my life. Perhaps a new me, or perhaps just the same idle talk I've said so many times.