we know we miss her, we miss her picture.
It seems that everytime I post it seems to be when I am upset. I have a lot of friends, but I don't have anyone I feel I trust enough to tell them serious things I need to get off my chest. I could go out with friends but lately everything has been building up and I feel a fallout coming soon. I suppose it is my fault for holding everything in, but well everyone around here loves to pretend. They pretend to care and then they break your trust. I am sure I have friends that are extremely trust worthy but I don't trust anymore. I just ahh. I wish I could write everything I feel in here. I am tired of people. I am tired of people changing constantly. I am tired of falling for someone and then they change a million times. I am tired of losing best friends over stupid mistakes. I am tired of people assuming things about me. I am tired of people counting me out because of my age, and not giving me a chance because of that. I am tired of not being able to listen to my favorite song because it reminds me of you. I am tired of not knowing the answers to basic things in life. I am tired of doubting myself. God damnit. Why can't people just give people a fucking second chance. I miss my best friends. I miss everythig. I miss fucking everything. I miss being so fucking happy I was about to explode. I miss being with them every second of everyday. I miss our four hour long phone calls every night. I miss calling you just to find out that we were listening to the same song. I miss wearing your jackets. I miss thier hugs. I miss our jokes. I need to find out which friends have subtance. I need to stop waiting around for you. I need to realize you are gone and I can't help you find yourself. That you are going to keep on changing until you can be happy. I can't save you from heartbreak, as much as I wish I could. I can't keep liking you. I know that I am over you but some tiny part of me isn't. I can't lie and say I am over you. Were never were but you always gave chase. I'm so fucking tired of people assuming. I know that people will assume who is who in this. And fuck you for that. I want to be happy. I want to care about someone. I want to be me again. I need to find out who that is again. My fallout is coming soon, just wait and see.