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eh. lets start with how i feel. sam, how are you feeling today? well person reading this. i feel like fucking shit.
my life it seems is crumbling down. i've been missing my uncle so much, never mind my uncle. i miss my past. i just wish i could be 6 again. and change everything. i'd save my uncle. i would not let him leave. i wouldn't feel this pain i do. i would change my friends, or if i didn't i'd leave them sooner then i had. i wouldn't keep putting myself in the same situations all the time. i'd stop myself from feeling the pain i do and did. i wouldn't love justin like i did. i wouldn't trust the people i did. i'd change everything i did. i wouldn't change myself however, as much as i hate myself. i'd hate it worse to be someone i'm not today.
i'm doing well in school for once. and other then my excrutiating pain i'm feeling, everything is fine. strange isn't it? how, i can feel like complete and worthless shit, when everything couldn't be better? and everything and anything people say. i argue it. and i've been taking offense and being extremely hard on myself. more hard on myself then i have been before. and it's scaring me.
i refuse to give in to my bad habbits again. i refuse to do that to myself as much as i'd love to. my writing has been pretty good lately. and i'm quite pleased that my style is coming out more and more.
i decided that i'm going to join Debate and maybe drama next year. it makes sense because i love arguing, probably too much. drama is just because it sounds fun. i also decided what i'm going to do with myself, career wise. i want to be a teacher. and major in english and minor in music. they're my two favorite things, might as wll make money for it. if you could tell, i've been thinking too much again. i want to go back to therepy. i miss talking about my bullshit without someone thinking i'm a complete psycho.
lets see. i broke my guitar, and it's now fixed. it cost me 77 dollars, but my mom paid for it. it's now fixed and i can play "twinkle, twinkle little star" and "let it be" by the beatles. i'm happy. i've improved in my guitar skills. i'm moving up in life. i want summer. i want to go to the beach. most of all. i want to burn. out
xxx sam
-- edit -- i found this amusing.
Nightmare Before Christmas!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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my life it seems is crumbling down. i've been missing my uncle so much, never mind my uncle. i miss my past. i just wish i could be 6 again. and change everything. i'd save my uncle. i would not let him leave. i wouldn't feel this pain i do. i would change my friends, or if i didn't i'd leave them sooner then i had. i wouldn't keep putting myself in the same situations all the time. i'd stop myself from feeling the pain i do and did. i wouldn't love justin like i did. i wouldn't trust the people i did. i'd change everything i did. i wouldn't change myself however, as much as i hate myself. i'd hate it worse to be someone i'm not today.
i'm doing well in school for once. and other then my excrutiating pain i'm feeling, everything is fine. strange isn't it? how, i can feel like complete and worthless shit, when everything couldn't be better? and everything and anything people say. i argue it. and i've been taking offense and being extremely hard on myself. more hard on myself then i have been before. and it's scaring me.
i refuse to give in to my bad habbits again. i refuse to do that to myself as much as i'd love to. my writing has been pretty good lately. and i'm quite pleased that my style is coming out more and more.
i decided that i'm going to join Debate and maybe drama next year. it makes sense because i love arguing, probably too much. drama is just because it sounds fun. i also decided what i'm going to do with myself, career wise. i want to be a teacher. and major in english and minor in music. they're my two favorite things, might as wll make money for it. if you could tell, i've been thinking too much again. i want to go back to therepy. i miss talking about my bullshit without someone thinking i'm a complete psycho.
lets see. i broke my guitar, and it's now fixed. it cost me 77 dollars, but my mom paid for it. it's now fixed and i can play "twinkle, twinkle little star" and "let it be" by the beatles. i'm happy. i've improved in my guitar skills. i'm moving up in life. i want summer. i want to go to the beach. most of all. i want to burn. out
xxx sam
-- edit -- i found this amusing.
Nightmare Before Christmas!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla