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well lets see. i dont even know when i last wrote. and i don't think anything quite extraordinary has happend.
me and ryan, well. nothing will happen because i know he does not like me that way. and thats cool because, i just gained a really great friend, what else is new.
i'm finding myself extremely depressed lately. with.. everything. for some reason. my uncle's death is really effecting me. i just miss him so much, and the anniversary of his death is coming soon, and i know i'm going to take it really hard. i took his birthday really hard too. and i didn't expect it. i think i have to expect it this time around. i don't want to have a nervous breakdown because it's on a friday this year. god i don't want this day to come.
i broke my guitar. but it's now fixed thank god. i'm learning let it be by the beatles. good choice eh?
i'm writing too much. and thinking too much. and i miss justin. and i miss my dad. and i miss my uncle. i miss everyone. and.. i'm just getting deeper and deeper into this hole. and nobody sees me falling in. nobody can save me. nobody knows.
xxx sam
me and ryan, well. nothing will happen because i know he does not like me that way. and thats cool because, i just gained a really great friend, what else is new.
i'm finding myself extremely depressed lately. with.. everything. for some reason. my uncle's death is really effecting me. i just miss him so much, and the anniversary of his death is coming soon, and i know i'm going to take it really hard. i took his birthday really hard too. and i didn't expect it. i think i have to expect it this time around. i don't want to have a nervous breakdown because it's on a friday this year. god i don't want this day to come.
i broke my guitar. but it's now fixed thank god. i'm learning let it be by the beatles. good choice eh?
i'm writing too much. and thinking too much. and i miss justin. and i miss my dad. and i miss my uncle. i miss everyone. and.. i'm just getting deeper and deeper into this hole. and nobody sees me falling in. nobody can save me. nobody knows.
xxx sam