The Annual Sausage Festival!
YES!
Rufus tonight was the annual sausage festival!
Fantastically it was full of single men! Oh yes! NOTHING BUT SINGLE MEN!
Ironically, considering it was a "Regulars Party", I hardly knew anyone in.
Either their definition of regular has changed to "Aye I drank here once" or I just don't know many of the regulars lol!
Postie was in a stinking mood all night, probably brought on by alcohol. He's been getting worse and worse this past wee while. It put alot of my problems into perspective. This guy hates himself with a genuine passion. I try to help him but I can't help but feel that I'm letting him down sometimes. HOWEVER, I must redouble my efforts. I don't give up on the people I love.
Good to have Burnsy back among us, he is always good company as he shares my sense of humour and doesn't make things too serious when the situation dictates fun is to be had. We're both big kids basically and it's cracking!
He did however school my ass at pool. I believe the final standings were 3-1. I'm getting a bit better but I don't think I'll ever be really good at it. He however could be classed as "Very Good" I wouldn't give him an "Excellent" cos he doesn't just clear the table all the time. Although sometimes I think he might be capable. We played a lassie a few weeks ago and she was an absolute shark, she was playing positional shots and potting which is a combination I can't get. It's one or the other!
The debate rages on over the venue for the New year's festivities. Steph wants me at some place with her, burnsy and possibly chris are going. The rest are going to eddie's. Sara wants me to go to her new flat but i'm not sure. I mean, it'd just be me and loads of her mates. A bit awkward.
La dee da, what else?
Getting my new car soooooon. Want a lift? If not, you shall be placed in the book of grudges!
I feel really good tonight. I think lately I've been trying to give a negative spin to everything. I know how empty and pointless everything is but that in itself means that even the bad things are empty and pointless and therefore should have no effect on us :D
I know it's easy to say that but all you have to do is think. Most of the things in life are what they are. The easy answers are quite often right. It's not always worth reading too much into things because you might just discount the right answer. I'm all for looking at things from all angles but keep considering all possibilities rather than choosing the one which is convenient to your mood. I kept making everything shite cos I felt bad cos I felt bad about the past and bad about life and felt bad about Postie and felt bad about Sarah and felt bad about so much other stuff. But at the end of the day I am still alive and only by bringing light into the world will I help to end the darkness. Much better than adding to it by being miserable and being a source of the darkness I hate so much. Maybe that's where the self loathing comes from in alot of people. They perceive the world as shite but they are adding to the shite by being sad rather than trying to change it or contenting themselves with the fact that the world is shite and they can't change it.
Anyways, that's quite enough out of me. Thoughts anyone?
Love, freely given.
BURKE x
Rufus tonight was the annual sausage festival!
Fantastically it was full of single men! Oh yes! NOTHING BUT SINGLE MEN!
Ironically, considering it was a "Regulars Party", I hardly knew anyone in.
Either their definition of regular has changed to "Aye I drank here once" or I just don't know many of the regulars lol!
Postie was in a stinking mood all night, probably brought on by alcohol. He's been getting worse and worse this past wee while. It put alot of my problems into perspective. This guy hates himself with a genuine passion. I try to help him but I can't help but feel that I'm letting him down sometimes. HOWEVER, I must redouble my efforts. I don't give up on the people I love.
Good to have Burnsy back among us, he is always good company as he shares my sense of humour and doesn't make things too serious when the situation dictates fun is to be had. We're both big kids basically and it's cracking!
He did however school my ass at pool. I believe the final standings were 3-1. I'm getting a bit better but I don't think I'll ever be really good at it. He however could be classed as "Very Good" I wouldn't give him an "Excellent" cos he doesn't just clear the table all the time. Although sometimes I think he might be capable. We played a lassie a few weeks ago and she was an absolute shark, she was playing positional shots and potting which is a combination I can't get. It's one or the other!
The debate rages on over the venue for the New year's festivities. Steph wants me at some place with her, burnsy and possibly chris are going. The rest are going to eddie's. Sara wants me to go to her new flat but i'm not sure. I mean, it'd just be me and loads of her mates. A bit awkward.
La dee da, what else?
Getting my new car soooooon. Want a lift? If not, you shall be placed in the book of grudges!
I feel really good tonight. I think lately I've been trying to give a negative spin to everything. I know how empty and pointless everything is but that in itself means that even the bad things are empty and pointless and therefore should have no effect on us :D
I know it's easy to say that but all you have to do is think. Most of the things in life are what they are. The easy answers are quite often right. It's not always worth reading too much into things because you might just discount the right answer. I'm all for looking at things from all angles but keep considering all possibilities rather than choosing the one which is convenient to your mood. I kept making everything shite cos I felt bad cos I felt bad about the past and bad about life and felt bad about Postie and felt bad about Sarah and felt bad about so much other stuff. But at the end of the day I am still alive and only by bringing light into the world will I help to end the darkness. Much better than adding to it by being miserable and being a source of the darkness I hate so much. Maybe that's where the self loathing comes from in alot of people. They perceive the world as shite but they are adding to the shite by being sad rather than trying to change it or contenting themselves with the fact that the world is shite and they can't change it.
Anyways, that's quite enough out of me. Thoughts anyone?
Love, freely given.
BURKE x