confused myself
ok well L.J. folks I believe that I might be heartless...I just had a family member O D on something and die,another one is about to lose both of her legs and probably die, and another one is completly eaten up with cancer and will die soon, then another one only has six weeks to live! I mean a few years ago I would be crying right now or be sad or something but its like it doesnt even bother me? have I become so detached with my life and busy schedule that I am some sort of robot? I feel like lately i am just going thru the motions of life but im not living it...I mean im happy enough right now ive got so much going for me and thats a lot to say considering how I grew up and all. I mean if you looked at me when I was a child and looked at me now I have grown so much in the way I think and view the world...but oh well I think I need to get someone that I can talk to about all of this but really its just pointless drabble, I suppose, so I just right it down or type it. but I just got back from eating with my mom and I havnt seen her in a week or so which was nice and im about to go out with friends and shoot pool or play video games whatever it is its just nice to have people because there was a time when I had no one.