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So there's just no where else to post this shit so I can vent about it all. Can't put stuff on facebook because people know him and that would be weird. My friends I'm sure are sick of hearing about him. Now here I am, randomly back on LJ just to let my feelings/thoughts out because I'm going crazy. I just want them out there..and I'm cool with people not seeing this. Sorry I'm ranting so onward:
When I first started at Pac, Stevie was the other assistant manager. From the get go we were good friends. He said I totally reminded him of a friend of his. We bonded so well that we were sort of told by my SM to include her and the keyholder because they felt left out. lol So that's the basics...
Now though I've developed such a wicked! crush on this kid. Can't say "love" but there's "strong like" and lust. He's now the SM for a different store so I went from seeing him all the time to once a month or so. The first time I saw him after he left my store made me realize how much I missed him. He really was a sight for sore eyes.
He just makes me happy. I love being around him, I love it when he texts me or calls me. Or asks me to come hang out at his store when I'm off at Anthonys. I can't get this mothereffer out of my head. And this is where the problem comes in..
Not only do we work for the same company in the same district and in different levels of management but he has a kid and I'm pretty sure is with the babymama. So he flirts with me something fierce and I feel like there's something mutual there but nooooo. He's utterly off limits to me.
Of course the smart thing to do would be to look for someone else but then he just drags me back in. And I hate myself for being so addicted to this guy. It just shows how pathetic I am..like we went a week without texting or talking on the phone which is actually a really long time for us and I was super sad. Which is SO dumb! Why am I so dumb!!! *headdesk*
I want it to be silly flirting with nothing behind it but its not that for me. I'm just setting myself up to fail with this one. Suck.
I don't even know. I just wanted to have some word vomit over this. So for anyone actually reading this I apologize if it doesn't make sense (I totally am on Ambien lol). Bah whatever. I want to stop wanting him is the moral of this story I just don't know if that can happen
When I first started at Pac, Stevie was the other assistant manager. From the get go we were good friends. He said I totally reminded him of a friend of his. We bonded so well that we were sort of told by my SM to include her and the keyholder because they felt left out. lol So that's the basics...
Now though I've developed such a wicked! crush on this kid. Can't say "love" but there's "strong like" and lust. He's now the SM for a different store so I went from seeing him all the time to once a month or so. The first time I saw him after he left my store made me realize how much I missed him. He really was a sight for sore eyes.
He just makes me happy. I love being around him, I love it when he texts me or calls me. Or asks me to come hang out at his store when I'm off at Anthonys. I can't get this mothereffer out of my head. And this is where the problem comes in..
Not only do we work for the same company in the same district and in different levels of management but he has a kid and I'm pretty sure is with the babymama. So he flirts with me something fierce and I feel like there's something mutual there but nooooo. He's utterly off limits to me.
Of course the smart thing to do would be to look for someone else but then he just drags me back in. And I hate myself for being so addicted to this guy. It just shows how pathetic I am..like we went a week without texting or talking on the phone which is actually a really long time for us and I was super sad. Which is SO dumb! Why am I so dumb!!! *headdesk*
I want it to be silly flirting with nothing behind it but its not that for me. I'm just setting myself up to fail with this one. Suck.
I don't even know. I just wanted to have some word vomit over this. So for anyone actually reading this I apologize if it doesn't make sense (I totally am on Ambien lol). Bah whatever. I want to stop wanting him is the moral of this story I just don't know if that can happen