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The only reason guys even talk to me is they think they can take advantage of my disposition and get some ass.
I try to be a good person and the world shits all over me.
I know it's the truth now. Only fake, plastic, emotionless, heartless people get what they really want, while I'm the good guy here waiting for one fucking thing.
No fucking more. I'm not going to let people walk all over me.
I'm sick of being the shy, quiet one.
What do I have to do? Tan until my fucking skin falls off, bleach my hair white-blond until it feels like straw, get 10-inch french manicured acrylic nails, wear low cut shirts as my chest falls out while I'm laughing hysterically and saying "Oh my GAWD" in an attempt to impress a boy that's just going to use me for sex, then tell his ambigiously gay foot-ball team buddies as I die a little on the inside?
I don't fucking think so.
I've got fucking holes in my ears from the zero gauges. I listen to the Smashing Pumpkins and other early 90's rock. I don't give a fuck about the stupid emo bands you listen to. I have semi-green hair. I wear glasses. I have braces. I've got artistical talent, and I haven't reached my full potential yet, but I long to. I LIKE TO READ. I CAN'T FUCKING STAND YOU IF YOU CAN'T SPELL THINGS RIGHT OR DON'T USE PROPER GRAMMAR. I don't carry around stupid designer bags and flaunt my ass crack around town. I shop at the thrift store. I wear whatever the hell I like and I don't give a shit what you think. I don't do drugs or drink because it's fucking stupid, and pathetic. I don't care if you think you're cool because you do it. I don't give a shit if you think you're "more hardcore than I am". I don't give a fuck if you're having sex with your boyfriend because you know what? I'm a virgin and FUCKING PROUD OF IT. I'm giving it to someone who really deserves it.
And what was the point of that rant?
Because I'm tired of looking for someone that deserves it.
And because if you don't like me for who I am, you can go fuck yourself.
If'd you'd rather have some dirty skank with syphillis over me, go right ahead. You probably weren't good enough for me anyway.
This rant wasn't directed towards anyone specifically. I just got thinking tonight and got really pissed off.
So. Amanda, Tom? Derailed tomorrow? If you're reading this, call me or something.
I try to be a good person and the world shits all over me.
I know it's the truth now. Only fake, plastic, emotionless, heartless people get what they really want, while I'm the good guy here waiting for one fucking thing.
No fucking more. I'm not going to let people walk all over me.
I'm sick of being the shy, quiet one.
What do I have to do? Tan until my fucking skin falls off, bleach my hair white-blond until it feels like straw, get 10-inch french manicured acrylic nails, wear low cut shirts as my chest falls out while I'm laughing hysterically and saying "Oh my GAWD" in an attempt to impress a boy that's just going to use me for sex, then tell his ambigiously gay foot-ball team buddies as I die a little on the inside?
I don't fucking think so.
I've got fucking holes in my ears from the zero gauges. I listen to the Smashing Pumpkins and other early 90's rock. I don't give a fuck about the stupid emo bands you listen to. I have semi-green hair. I wear glasses. I have braces. I've got artistical talent, and I haven't reached my full potential yet, but I long to. I LIKE TO READ. I CAN'T FUCKING STAND YOU IF YOU CAN'T SPELL THINGS RIGHT OR DON'T USE PROPER GRAMMAR. I don't carry around stupid designer bags and flaunt my ass crack around town. I shop at the thrift store. I wear whatever the hell I like and I don't give a shit what you think. I don't do drugs or drink because it's fucking stupid, and pathetic. I don't care if you think you're cool because you do it. I don't give a shit if you think you're "more hardcore than I am". I don't give a fuck if you're having sex with your boyfriend because you know what? I'm a virgin and FUCKING PROUD OF IT. I'm giving it to someone who really deserves it.
And what was the point of that rant?
Because I'm tired of looking for someone that deserves it.
And because if you don't like me for who I am, you can go fuck yourself.
If'd you'd rather have some dirty skank with syphillis over me, go right ahead. You probably weren't good enough for me anyway.
This rant wasn't directed towards anyone specifically. I just got thinking tonight and got really pissed off.
So. Amanda, Tom? Derailed tomorrow? If you're reading this, call me or something.