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Sometime you just dunt want to let go of things. You wished you lived in the past. Maybe thats why some people buy antiques and old cars and all. They wished to relieve the magic those stuff gave them many years ago. Thats different with people, cause some choose to move on. looking for something more exciting, new and not predictable. Well i never liked to move on from the good stuff. Some people might say im afraid for something new and less familiar. I never liked fucking around with a winning formula as long it keeps making you happy. i mean its all that matters. Yes over time you might need a minor tweak to make things more interesting. But a major overhaul has always been a hard thing for me to do. i might be a little old fashioned i guessed. girls dunt really fancy this kind of guys really. im cool with it really. i still have her as a friend to make me smile and be happy, though she has moved on and cant give me that much of attention or be there for me much. even 5 mins a day spent with her, is like a pill of happiness to cure a day of heartache for losing you. right now im dreading the day when you would eventually drift away have no time for me. i feel the onus upon me already. i shouldnt really burden you being all washed up over you. However i could never talk to anyone else about it beside you. I know no one else could ever do anything to help me through this. ive tried talking to people. but yea they just dunt know what to say. maybe i was cocky that i had you. i was always telling everyone how we would always be together. how it always works out for us. deep down, i never gave up hope. i knew as long we were together we could always face any problems. ive been wrong about everything so far, i hope just this once im right, you still have something for me. if you ever want to get back and start over im always here. i dunt care how many times you would play me out or hurt me. ill still be there to make it right again for us over and over again.