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Hais she admitted to it. i still love her still nonetheless. however she doesnt feel the same way. i gues once you have that power and feel that you can have anything you wish for it corrupts. like laced wine. i hope she is happy with what she is doing. i really do. i would never spite her for it. though she might think im asking her questions like im blaming her and all. i understand what she was going through. i went through the same thing, but i am proud to say i was stronger in controlling urges when it really mattered for the relationship. she didnt feel the same way and found her own path i guess. live goes on for her i guess. never has there been a better day for me to get cancer, aids and all the deadly stuff. i really wanna die. who am i kidding this pain kills gods. this pain isnt from her decision in life, it pains to put up a brave front infront of her so that she feels better. i would never wanna make her feel bad aboout what she did or herself. but it hurts to mask my pain. im just rephrasing how hurt i am in various sentences. all she could ever say way sorry. i couldnt blame her though. what else could she do..