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[bullet_beast]

goddamnit. i feel so fuckin....... alone i guess. i feel like i've lost everything. and all my shit starts out with "goddamnit". i can't sleep. i don't do anthing i used to for fun. i can't keep anyone. no one every wants me like i want them. what i'm i doing wrong? riddle me that. why can't alex keep anyone?

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[aqhart]

cus they take you for granit. it's their character flaw that's the problem. they're greedy or egocentric and put themselves above you and your feelings. you become an afterthought, a safety net, a back up. you will always be there. as shitty as that is, that's the best i can figure. i wish so fucking bad i could help, you have no idea. it's all bull shit cus you're the last one that deserves this crap. sorry alex, i want to give you an answer but nothing's tangible in a situation like this. so i'm holding my breath and keeping my fingers crossed because this is so unfair and you should be treated so much better than this.

[bullet_beast]

thank you. i aprecciate that alot. but how do i be more like that ones she.......... anyone wants?

[letsmapthestarz]

Don't be more like anyone else. You don't need to impress anyone. And don't think that just because "she" doesnt want you means that nobody else want's you. You'll find someone. But you're not ready mentally yet. When you are, you'll notice another person that want's you.

[radio_war]

hah.
so THAT's what put that idea in your head.

[radio_war]

stop listening to every thing everyone else has to say.
& start asking me.

i can't even believe that you'd actually THINK
that i would be that big of a bitch.
if anything i was your "safty net" in january,
because the girls you picked were bitches.

"alex realized his mistake after jennifer wilfong turned into a bitch. he realized he wanted you."
but what joey left out was "because you're an insecure little girl & you don't know any better. you'll withstand the emotional abuse just to hear 'i love you' & know that someone actually ment it even if they DONT act like it."

[bullet_beast]

i have asked and i don't want to ask you again because you usually get mad. and in january i wasn't planning on coming back until i realized i was a fucking idiot. i said i'm sorry so many times and i'd do anything to take it back. that was over a year ago and you know i changed.

"because you're an insecure little girl & you don't know any better. you'll withstand the emotional abuse just to hear 'i love you' & know that someone actually ment it even if they DONT act like it."

i never said that. i keep telling you it was the biggest mistake i ever made. and don't even act like it? i've waited for you through the hardest shit i've ever had to do. i always tell you i love you. i've done alot to let you know that i do. i've treated you better than everyone else. i'm always here for you. i know i was a dick but i changed.

[radio_war]

i never asked you to wait, though.

"and in january i wasn't planning on coming back until i realized i was a fucking idiot."
...nevermind.

[bullet_beast]

i know you never asked. why would you. nevermind what?

[radio_war]

idk.

you said you loved me in january,
if you really did why didn't you want to come back?
some things just don't add up.

[bullet_beast]

because i was a confused, stupid, immature,stupid, fuckin, idiot. i made a mistake. idk what to say. you've done it to. everyone has. i regret it more than anything.

[radio_war]

i did what too?

[bullet_beast]

you've made mistakes.

[radio_war]

i'm aware of that.
i think everyone is.