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The best way to get out of a fun is to do some work, dress nicely and spend time at a Chabad Lag B'omer event in a nearby park. I decided that instead of just feeling like an inadequate mother, wife, person, etc, I would get off my butt and do something. So I cleaned my room, put folded laundry that was sitting there since Shabbos away, tidied up the living room and even -!- took out both garbages! As I cleaned I felt better and better about myself especially cuz DH was sitting and surfing and watching me do it. Then I got dressed, even with a sheitel and make-up cuz when you look good, you feel good. We got the kids into the car and he's like 'i'm sorry, i make you feel so bad, etc.' and i'm like 'no, its not you, its me. i need to kick some bad habits, you are just the one that has to put up with it.' partially true. We then had a splendid time at the Chabad lag b'omer party. i met abunch of people I know which is always a nice feeling. the kids had fun running around on teh playground and playing with the balls. we had hot dogs and drinks and sort of watched a juggling act. we got home and i feel soooo much better. plus the house is already neat, so score 1 for that! now we are going to watch some britains got talent and I dont even need to feel bad about enjoying the musical parts. Yay for feeling good!!