On the road again....
So after some MAJOR derail-age...I am finally on the road again...the road to success that is (*cheese*)...basically ever since reaching goal, my mind has me spinning out of control on the eating front and I have just not been able to control it.
I KNOW how to eat to lose weight...I know this...I have done it for months, years even...and when I gain, I know what I did wrong...what I have not quite been blessed with is the knowledge on how to maintain...and this little roadblock had me stumped ever since I saw that 147.6 hit the scale and a big huge EXHALE of relief escaped my lips. I let myself relax....and when I do this, I do it BIG TIME. I stopped journaling, stopped really counting or tracking, stopped really caring what I ate, stopped pushing myself exercise-wise...I relaxed and boy did that take me on a HUGE detour.
Karen, my WW leader, mentioned something to me on Saturday that really stuck with me. She could totally relate to what I was going through...it is very much a pendulum effect...it's either feast or famine. When we are losing weight, we are in famine mode...but sooner or later the pendulum will swing and we will feast...mine was occuring monthly...I would feast, feast, feast and then the last week of the month would hit & so would the OMG! moment of "I have to be within 2 pounds of my goal to not have to pay next week, so I've gotta get my butt into geat"...and then famine would hit. I would weigh in, within the 2 pounds...and then the pendulum would swing and it's party time! So amidst my party feasting gluttony for one this past week, I thought to myself "I am just not going to weigh in this week"...and as a Lifetimer I have that priviledge...I don't have to weigh-in if I don't want to...I've made the crutial weigh-in of the month & can attend the meetings for free this month, so I could have let myself take the easy way out.
So Friday night my husband & I went out for dinner...and I had bread, calamari, crab cakes...all the good stuff...all the stuff I wouldn't normally DARE have on a Friday night, let alone any other time because if I was actually counting points, I would have a minor heart attack!
Saturday morning rolls around and I decide to do it...I am going to weigh in...sometimes it is better to just not see the number, but sometimes you have to give yourself a little tough love and face the facts. And let me tell you....it was SO hard to see...My revised WW goal is 150...so as long as I am no more than 152, I get the free pass for the month. Bear in mind I BARELY made the 2 pound mark at the beginning of May...so my weigh in on Saturday?? 157.2. Yeah...say it with me....OUCH!!! But seeing that number and actually having it recorded in my file did a wonder...I have committed to journaling this week...EVERYTHING! And I have done it! It is Monday evening and I have 3 solid days of journaling under my belt...and I feel so much better & in control. The pendulum hasn't stopped completely, but I think I am on the road to having it one day be at a constant medium instead of one extreme to the next. I need to journal...I just need to. I don't like writing down that I ate 5 snickers bars...so if I am committing myself to writing everything down, chances are my pride will stand in the way and I will think twice about inhaling the 5 snickers bars! Writing everything down makes me accountable & makes me aware of what I am eating...so I am feeling great about my progress and my scale is starting to show a gradual decline again. YAY!!
On the road again...just can't wait to get on the road again...
I KNOW how to eat to lose weight...I know this...I have done it for months, years even...and when I gain, I know what I did wrong...what I have not quite been blessed with is the knowledge on how to maintain...and this little roadblock had me stumped ever since I saw that 147.6 hit the scale and a big huge EXHALE of relief escaped my lips. I let myself relax....and when I do this, I do it BIG TIME. I stopped journaling, stopped really counting or tracking, stopped really caring what I ate, stopped pushing myself exercise-wise...I relaxed and boy did that take me on a HUGE detour.
Karen, my WW leader, mentioned something to me on Saturday that really stuck with me. She could totally relate to what I was going through...it is very much a pendulum effect...it's either feast or famine. When we are losing weight, we are in famine mode...but sooner or later the pendulum will swing and we will feast...mine was occuring monthly...I would feast, feast, feast and then the last week of the month would hit & so would the OMG! moment of "I have to be within 2 pounds of my goal to not have to pay next week, so I've gotta get my butt into geat"...and then famine would hit. I would weigh in, within the 2 pounds...and then the pendulum would swing and it's party time! So amidst my party feasting gluttony for one this past week, I thought to myself "I am just not going to weigh in this week"...and as a Lifetimer I have that priviledge...I don't have to weigh-in if I don't want to...I've made the crutial weigh-in of the month & can attend the meetings for free this month, so I could have let myself take the easy way out.
So Friday night my husband & I went out for dinner...and I had bread, calamari, crab cakes...all the good stuff...all the stuff I wouldn't normally DARE have on a Friday night, let alone any other time because if I was actually counting points, I would have a minor heart attack!
Saturday morning rolls around and I decide to do it...I am going to weigh in...sometimes it is better to just not see the number, but sometimes you have to give yourself a little tough love and face the facts. And let me tell you....it was SO hard to see...My revised WW goal is 150...so as long as I am no more than 152, I get the free pass for the month. Bear in mind I BARELY made the 2 pound mark at the beginning of May...so my weigh in on Saturday?? 157.2. Yeah...say it with me....OUCH!!! But seeing that number and actually having it recorded in my file did a wonder...I have committed to journaling this week...EVERYTHING! And I have done it! It is Monday evening and I have 3 solid days of journaling under my belt...and I feel so much better & in control. The pendulum hasn't stopped completely, but I think I am on the road to having it one day be at a constant medium instead of one extreme to the next. I need to journal...I just need to. I don't like writing down that I ate 5 snickers bars...so if I am committing myself to writing everything down, chances are my pride will stand in the way and I will think twice about inhaling the 5 snickers bars! Writing everything down makes me accountable & makes me aware of what I am eating...so I am feeling great about my progress and my scale is starting to show a gradual decline again. YAY!!
On the road again...just can't wait to get on the road again...