Snyder meeting, oh joy :\ from beautiesnbeasts
Last night was a long night. Me and Faith slept over Giles' house. There was some planning, involved. Not much. I mean, it's not like we know where Angelus and Cordelia are. We don't even know where Spike is, for that matter. I'm starting to think they're not in Sunnydale. It's a big possibility. That will torture me that much more. I knew it wouldn't be that easy.
This morning, I didn't wake up in the best of moods. I was completely burned out. I felt like I let everyone down. More than ever, I felt like I let myself down. I feel responsible for Willow dying and Cordelia being turned. Both times, Xander fell more into sadness. It was out of my control and I couldn't make it better. Being a slayer has many advantages, but at the same time, there are more disadvantages. I know I'm strong and can beat anything, but when something like this happens, I question myself, a lot. I'm good enough to be a slayer but not good enough to save my friends.
There was one person involved in both deaths. Angelus. I couldn't believe it. Spike said it was true, but I still questioned it. When Xander said Angelus took Cordelia, I knew right then, that he was back. His return was confusing. Why was he back? Why did he come back as Angelus? When I sent him to hell, his soul was back in place. The spell worked. Now, he's back and not with a soul. How is that even possible? We had to find out what happened while he was in hell. Giles should have some books that will tell us what a hell dimension would be like for someone like Angel. And, find out if it's possible to cast someone out of a hell dimension.
So many things are going on at once and I just want to scream. Faith left as me and Giles were waking up. She went to get Xander. I figured it would be better if she got him. I couldn't see him, just yet. He could be deeply hurt, and I just couldn't deal with that right now. I couldn't see him that way.
I got dressed and we headed out for school. School was the last place I wanted to be, and I let Giles know that. He told me that we have to go to school, before people started to talk. Apparently, the rumor mill was in full swing. Great. Just great.
When we got to school, we headed straight for the library. It was still early. I had to make up an English exam and that gave me more time to study. At least, that's what I wanted to do. We're talking about me, Buffy Summers. Nothing ever turns out right for me. It's just not happening.
I looked around the library and told Giles that this was going to be harder than I thought. It was quiet. Usually, Willow was here already. Now, we'll never see her here, again.
Giles tried to calm me down. He told me that I had to be strong and concentrate on my duties. He was feeling sad too, but he had to be strong. Strong for me, possibly. Maybe, it's what I needed. After all, I was coming down on myself pretty hard, for everything that happened. Giles didn't ask me to be strong. He told be to be strong. He's right. I can't stand here and argue with him. That's the push I needed.
Synder came over the loud speaker and said we had to go to the auditorium. Bleh. I wanted to study. I didn't have any desire to listen to what he had to say. I hugged Giles and told him I'm going to try not to take it personally. It was hard with Angelus making it personal. I'm going to rip his head off.
"I rather agree, again, Buffy, however, we mustn't be flip about how we bring...bring them down. It will not be easy and before worrying about defeating them, we must be sure that we protect ourselves."
I looked down at my fingers. "I know." I looked up at Giles. "It's not going to be easy. They're not going to make it easy for us. We don't even know where they are. There's a lot of work to be done. There's no other choice than to protect ourselves, first. I'm not up for losing more people I care about."
We headed to the auditorium and we sat down. I saw Xander and Faith, behind us. I heard the door open and looked. It was Oz. My eyes widened a bit. I looked at Giles and nudged his arm. "What's Oz doing here? I thought he was caged up." There was something definitely not right with this picture. I'm trying to figure out how he got out in the first place. This can't be good.
[[Giles]]
This morning, I didn't wake up in the best of moods. I was completely burned out. I felt like I let everyone down. More than ever, I felt like I let myself down. I feel responsible for Willow dying and Cordelia being turned. Both times, Xander fell more into sadness. It was out of my control and I couldn't make it better. Being a slayer has many advantages, but at the same time, there are more disadvantages. I know I'm strong and can beat anything, but when something like this happens, I question myself, a lot. I'm good enough to be a slayer but not good enough to save my friends.
There was one person involved in both deaths. Angelus. I couldn't believe it. Spike said it was true, but I still questioned it. When Xander said Angelus took Cordelia, I knew right then, that he was back. His return was confusing. Why was he back? Why did he come back as Angelus? When I sent him to hell, his soul was back in place. The spell worked. Now, he's back and not with a soul. How is that even possible? We had to find out what happened while he was in hell. Giles should have some books that will tell us what a hell dimension would be like for someone like Angel. And, find out if it's possible to cast someone out of a hell dimension.
So many things are going on at once and I just want to scream. Faith left as me and Giles were waking up. She went to get Xander. I figured it would be better if she got him. I couldn't see him, just yet. He could be deeply hurt, and I just couldn't deal with that right now. I couldn't see him that way.
I got dressed and we headed out for school. School was the last place I wanted to be, and I let Giles know that. He told me that we have to go to school, before people started to talk. Apparently, the rumor mill was in full swing. Great. Just great.
When we got to school, we headed straight for the library. It was still early. I had to make up an English exam and that gave me more time to study. At least, that's what I wanted to do. We're talking about me, Buffy Summers. Nothing ever turns out right for me. It's just not happening.
I looked around the library and told Giles that this was going to be harder than I thought. It was quiet. Usually, Willow was here already. Now, we'll never see her here, again.
Giles tried to calm me down. He told me that I had to be strong and concentrate on my duties. He was feeling sad too, but he had to be strong. Strong for me, possibly. Maybe, it's what I needed. After all, I was coming down on myself pretty hard, for everything that happened. Giles didn't ask me to be strong. He told be to be strong. He's right. I can't stand here and argue with him. That's the push I needed.
Synder came over the loud speaker and said we had to go to the auditorium. Bleh. I wanted to study. I didn't have any desire to listen to what he had to say. I hugged Giles and told him I'm going to try not to take it personally. It was hard with Angelus making it personal. I'm going to rip his head off.
"I rather agree, again, Buffy, however, we mustn't be flip about how we bring...bring them down. It will not be easy and before worrying about defeating them, we must be sure that we protect ourselves."
I looked down at my fingers. "I know." I looked up at Giles. "It's not going to be easy. They're not going to make it easy for us. We don't even know where they are. There's a lot of work to be done. There's no other choice than to protect ourselves, first. I'm not up for losing more people I care about."
We headed to the auditorium and we sat down. I saw Xander and Faith, behind us. I heard the door open and looked. It was Oz. My eyes widened a bit. I looked at Giles and nudged his arm. "What's Oz doing here? I thought he was caged up." There was something definitely not right with this picture. I'm trying to figure out how he got out in the first place. This can't be good.
[[Giles]]