The Sleepover from beautiesnbeasts
The hardest thing was leaving Xander at his house. He wanted to go home, but I knew how sad he was. I guess I didn't want him to be alone. I hoped he would have came with me. Everything that has happened to Willow, now Cordelia kept eating at him. He tried to be strong, but it was slowly eating away at him. I told him everything was my fault, but I don't think he blamed me. He didn't say anything when he went inside his house. I stood there for a moment, taking everything in. I debated whether I should knock on the door and talk to him, but I decided not to do that. I'm guessing he didn't want to rehash anything tonight, and we'll talk about it tomorrow. I left Xander's house and started walking to Giles' place.
I thought about everything that had happened the past few days. One thing that sucks being by yourself, is thinking a lot. And, when I mean think I mean think. Like, deeply think. There were so many thoughts going on in my head, I couldn't compose on coherent thought. The one side of my brain was thinking about Cordelia, and how her life is completely over and she will never be the same, again. The other side was, Angel. How did he come back? Why did he come back? And, why as Angelus? Still, I had no physical proof that Angelus was here. I had word of mouth from Spike, Willy and Xander. I had to see for myself. I did send him to hell. He was supposed to be gone for good, right? Something had to happen down there for someone to send him back here. It didn't make any sense to me. When someone tells you that your ex-boyfriend is back from hell, it's kind of hard to actually believe it.
I heard someone yelling. Then, the person yelled my name. I turned and it was Faith practically hanging out of Giles' car. I looked and shook my head. I walked over to the car when Giles pulled over. Talking was not on my agenda, right now, so I silently go into the car. During the ride, Faith was trying to get me to tell her what was going on. I just looked out of tha car window, wishing she would shut up.
She mentioned that her and Giles were patrolling and I completely snapped at Giles. I didn't mean to, but he was putting himself in danger and she allowed him to do that. Giles can handle himself sometimes, but I wasn't about to lose him too, especially, if Angelus was around. He was a little angry that I yelled at him, but I don't regret it. I told him that I couldn't lose him. I couldn't stand if I lost another person in my life. And losing Giles, is something I didn't want to think about. I caved and told them what had happened. It could have been explained better, but I did it the only way that I could...fast and to the point. I didn't want to relive the exact details. Giles and Faith couldn't believe what I told them. Their faces told me it all. Giles grew uncomfortable in the car at the news of Cordelia being turned by Angelus. Make that two, since I was still uncomfortable at the thought.
The rest of the way to Giles' house, we were all silent in the car. Giles drove up to his driveway and parked. We all got out of the car and went into his house. I dumped myself right on the couch as soon as I got in there. I haven't sat in god knows how many hours. Faith sat on the couch across from me. Giles went hung up his coat and went into the kitchen.
"You gonna be alright, B?"
I looked up at her. "Do I look I'm going to be alright, Faith? You have no idea what I've been through tonight. I can't explain it to you. You wouldn't understand. I actually have to feel in order to understand." She glared at me. Her eyes looked like they got darker. She bent over and had her elbows on her knees.
"What's that supposed to mean? You think I don't have feelings? B, you don't even know enough to start judging me. You weren't there when my Watcher died. You had no idea what I went through. So, don't talk about what you don't know. It's not my fault you're still hooked up on your vamp ex-boyfriend and just that much pissed off that he turned Cordelia. Do you even care that he turned her, or does it bother you that he chose her to turn?"
I got up and walked to where she was and looked down at her. She stood up and got in my face. "Faith, if I were you, I'd shut my big mouth. I don't have to explain myself to you. It's none of your business. Willow's dead too, you know? But, she's not the undead. She's just...dead. I'll never see her again. This isn't all about Angel. So, yeah, I'd steer clear of mentioning Angelus' name and me being jealous in the same sentence. You never know, a fist might come out of nowhere and punch you in the face." Fists formed as both of my hands were at my sides. Faith just smirked. I think she like getting me pissed off. It's as if she wanted a fight.
"Nice threat, but I doubt that'll happen, B. I'm just lookin' out for ya. You snapped at me, and I just couldn't have that. I'm not your little Scooby friends to talk to like shit. I'm not that girl. You should know that. But, if you wanna throw down, just let me know when. I kinda like you more when you're pissed like this."
Behind me, I heard Giles clearing his throat. I looked over and he stood there with a tray of tea. He placed it on the coffee table. I turned back to look at Faith and then I went back to where I was sitting on the couch. I didn't have time to fight with Faith. Nor, did I have the energy. I was completely drained of anything. Or at least, it felt that way. I just wanted to find Angelus, Spike, and Cordelia.
"Giles, we're going to have to come up with a plan. Angelus, Cordelia and Spike are a big threat. I don't know if Spike was trying stop Angelus or that he's even still alive. I just know that we have to find them." Giles looked up at me and sipped his tea. "This can't go on. I won't be able to fully rest until...until I can understand. I don't even know how Angel is back. Let alone why he came back as Angelus. I-I don't even know where to start. I feel like this big loser." I put my head down. "None of this would have happened, if I would have been paying more attention. I was so set on finding out who killed Willow that all of this other stuff happened right under my nose. It's bad enough Willow already died under my watch, but now Cordelia. She's a vampire now. What are we supposed to tell her parents or friends? The same with Willow. I-I can't do this. Xander's alone and I can't do anything for him." The tears began to well up in my eyes. Giles put his hand on my shoulder. "We need to do this and together."
This was going to be a long night. There was much planning and discussing to do. I don't think I'm getting any sleep. Not now. Not like this.
((Giles and Faith))
I thought about everything that had happened the past few days. One thing that sucks being by yourself, is thinking a lot. And, when I mean think I mean think. Like, deeply think. There were so many thoughts going on in my head, I couldn't compose on coherent thought. The one side of my brain was thinking about Cordelia, and how her life is completely over and she will never be the same, again. The other side was, Angel. How did he come back? Why did he come back? And, why as Angelus? Still, I had no physical proof that Angelus was here. I had word of mouth from Spike, Willy and Xander. I had to see for myself. I did send him to hell. He was supposed to be gone for good, right? Something had to happen down there for someone to send him back here. It didn't make any sense to me. When someone tells you that your ex-boyfriend is back from hell, it's kind of hard to actually believe it.
I heard someone yelling. Then, the person yelled my name. I turned and it was Faith practically hanging out of Giles' car. I looked and shook my head. I walked over to the car when Giles pulled over. Talking was not on my agenda, right now, so I silently go into the car. During the ride, Faith was trying to get me to tell her what was going on. I just looked out of tha car window, wishing she would shut up.
She mentioned that her and Giles were patrolling and I completely snapped at Giles. I didn't mean to, but he was putting himself in danger and she allowed him to do that. Giles can handle himself sometimes, but I wasn't about to lose him too, especially, if Angelus was around. He was a little angry that I yelled at him, but I don't regret it. I told him that I couldn't lose him. I couldn't stand if I lost another person in my life. And losing Giles, is something I didn't want to think about. I caved and told them what had happened. It could have been explained better, but I did it the only way that I could...fast and to the point. I didn't want to relive the exact details. Giles and Faith couldn't believe what I told them. Their faces told me it all. Giles grew uncomfortable in the car at the news of Cordelia being turned by Angelus. Make that two, since I was still uncomfortable at the thought.
The rest of the way to Giles' house, we were all silent in the car. Giles drove up to his driveway and parked. We all got out of the car and went into his house. I dumped myself right on the couch as soon as I got in there. I haven't sat in god knows how many hours. Faith sat on the couch across from me. Giles went hung up his coat and went into the kitchen.
"You gonna be alright, B?"
I looked up at her. "Do I look I'm going to be alright, Faith? You have no idea what I've been through tonight. I can't explain it to you. You wouldn't understand. I actually have to feel in order to understand." She glared at me. Her eyes looked like they got darker. She bent over and had her elbows on her knees.
"What's that supposed to mean? You think I don't have feelings? B, you don't even know enough to start judging me. You weren't there when my Watcher died. You had no idea what I went through. So, don't talk about what you don't know. It's not my fault you're still hooked up on your vamp ex-boyfriend and just that much pissed off that he turned Cordelia. Do you even care that he turned her, or does it bother you that he chose her to turn?"
I got up and walked to where she was and looked down at her. She stood up and got in my face. "Faith, if I were you, I'd shut my big mouth. I don't have to explain myself to you. It's none of your business. Willow's dead too, you know? But, she's not the undead. She's just...dead. I'll never see her again. This isn't all about Angel. So, yeah, I'd steer clear of mentioning Angelus' name and me being jealous in the same sentence. You never know, a fist might come out of nowhere and punch you in the face." Fists formed as both of my hands were at my sides. Faith just smirked. I think she like getting me pissed off. It's as if she wanted a fight.
"Nice threat, but I doubt that'll happen, B. I'm just lookin' out for ya. You snapped at me, and I just couldn't have that. I'm not your little Scooby friends to talk to like shit. I'm not that girl. You should know that. But, if you wanna throw down, just let me know when. I kinda like you more when you're pissed like this."
Behind me, I heard Giles clearing his throat. I looked over and he stood there with a tray of tea. He placed it on the coffee table. I turned back to look at Faith and then I went back to where I was sitting on the couch. I didn't have time to fight with Faith. Nor, did I have the energy. I was completely drained of anything. Or at least, it felt that way. I just wanted to find Angelus, Spike, and Cordelia.
"Giles, we're going to have to come up with a plan. Angelus, Cordelia and Spike are a big threat. I don't know if Spike was trying stop Angelus or that he's even still alive. I just know that we have to find them." Giles looked up at me and sipped his tea. "This can't go on. I won't be able to fully rest until...until I can understand. I don't even know how Angel is back. Let alone why he came back as Angelus. I-I don't even know where to start. I feel like this big loser." I put my head down. "None of this would have happened, if I would have been paying more attention. I was so set on finding out who killed Willow that all of this other stuff happened right under my nose. It's bad enough Willow already died under my watch, but now Cordelia. She's a vampire now. What are we supposed to tell her parents or friends? The same with Willow. I-I can't do this. Xander's alone and I can't do anything for him." The tears began to well up in my eyes. Giles put his hand on my shoulder. "We need to do this and together."
This was going to be a long night. There was much planning and discussing to do. I don't think I'm getting any sleep. Not now. Not like this.
((Giles and Faith))