Sep 08, 2008 20:04
Sshh, don't tell anyone, but...
*whispers* I'm pregnant!
I'm not allowed to tell anyone yet. Writing in my blog isn't telling people, right? Besides, anyone that might read this doesn't know me IRL. My mom, his mom and dad, and my work know (well, my boss will know tomorrow). But that's pretty much it. But as my husband says, what's the good of a juicy secret if you can't share it?!! We've been trying for about three months (after three months off the pill and no baby-making), but I didn't expect it to happen so soon with my and Chris' medical histories. I really figured we'd have fertility problems. In a way, I'm still in disbelief. Everytime I go to the bathroom I expect to have started my period. I have my first doctor appointment on the 23rd, and they are going to do an ultrasound. I thought, wow, that's early! :-O It's only 7 weeks at that time. So now I'm in this awful wait and see period. Before it was wait for the fertile window, do the deed for a few days, then wait for two weeks for the period to show up, and wait another two weeks for the next fertile window. Now I'm waiting for my first appointment to even confirm the pregnancy. Waiting to be able to tell people. Waiting to be able to plan. Most miscariages happen at or before 12-13 weeks, so it makes no sense to plan/shop/name before then. I've known too many people recently who've had miscarriages to do that to myself. That's also why with the not telling people. *sigh*
Basically it boils down to being too scared to celebrate, and not being to celebrate in the open and shout it from the roof tops. :bummed: