Cant get this pressue point out of my head....
We are still in sydney. I am starting to get homesick and slightly depressed. I dont know what to make of people here. It cant ever be like it used to, when do we know that the bridge has been burned beyond repair? I crave the familar. The place where things are mine and i understand the order in which the world works and where doonas and people are warm and snuggly. I dont know. Im trying to work out and fix a lot of things in my life and i dont think im quite ready for this "being back here" part yet. Makes me wonder why im here.
My dads emails are the best emails around. Funny how someone has to move to another country for you to get to know them more and vicey versey. I miss him a lot. Theres just a lot going on up here you know....and i dont know how to keep it all in. But then the list of people id feel comfortable talking about it to is quite short. Sometimes even the closest of close arent even there.
I just dont think sydney is good for me at the moment. Its having too much of a negative effect. I just feel like having a good cry but looking around there is no one here to hold my hand and tell me itll be ok.
My dads emails are the best emails around. Funny how someone has to move to another country for you to get to know them more and vicey versey. I miss him a lot. Theres just a lot going on up here you know....and i dont know how to keep it all in. But then the list of people id feel comfortable talking about it to is quite short. Sometimes even the closest of close arent even there.
I just dont think sydney is good for me at the moment. Its having too much of a negative effect. I just feel like having a good cry but looking around there is no one here to hold my hand and tell me itll be ok.