since i am the only one that hasn't got an email or post yet...
i am going to end the whole freaking thing.
this really really should stop here.
it seems as if this is all about me, but someone else is getting the flack for it. i want everyone to know that faith and religion to me is a very personal thing. it is totally unfair to say if you believe in god you should do this and if you are a christian you should hold these beliefs. the thing is, no matter how right you believe you are, someone is bound to see it a different way, and that does not mean that you need to change that. it's just not fair.
my life has become really hard these past couple days and not because of these supposed sins. the whole point of the bible having guidlines is to keep people out of trouble. the fact that i have followed these rules to my own standards is not what is causing the trouble though. in fact it has made my beliefs my own and therefore even stronger. it's the fact that people can't come to grips with the possibility that i might not believe the same way they do that is keeping me up nights.
all of that aside, for some reason it is someone else that is getting the letters and talks and emails. guys...I MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS!!! nobody is leading me astray; i can think for myself and i take it as an insult (to say the least) that someone would accuse anyone of leading me astray. in fact the accused is the one that makes me so happy you wouldn't even believe. it's not just "hanging out". it's so much more.
guys, i drank. i drink. it wasn't the first time and it wont be the last, and it is not a problem. i am so happy with where i am right now and i only wish you could look past your own standards and realize that i am measuring up to my own, and that is all anyone can ask of me. (just be happy for me. please.) i dont want to be changed anymore than you would want me to change you. it is possible to be christian in so many ways that to try and judge for yourself who is and who is not is absolutely silly (especially if you have not even met them) only god knows the heart of man...
so this is it. no more talks. no more emails. no more posts. i want everything to go back and be fine. it hurts me so much that due to some nearsightedness two of the most important groups of people in my life may never meet. i urge anyone who reads this to challenge whatever they believe and hold it to yourself, because it is nobody elses business.
sincerely,
(carter)
this really really should stop here.
it seems as if this is all about me, but someone else is getting the flack for it. i want everyone to know that faith and religion to me is a very personal thing. it is totally unfair to say if you believe in god you should do this and if you are a christian you should hold these beliefs. the thing is, no matter how right you believe you are, someone is bound to see it a different way, and that does not mean that you need to change that. it's just not fair.
my life has become really hard these past couple days and not because of these supposed sins. the whole point of the bible having guidlines is to keep people out of trouble. the fact that i have followed these rules to my own standards is not what is causing the trouble though. in fact it has made my beliefs my own and therefore even stronger. it's the fact that people can't come to grips with the possibility that i might not believe the same way they do that is keeping me up nights.
all of that aside, for some reason it is someone else that is getting the letters and talks and emails. guys...I MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS!!! nobody is leading me astray; i can think for myself and i take it as an insult (to say the least) that someone would accuse anyone of leading me astray. in fact the accused is the one that makes me so happy you wouldn't even believe. it's not just "hanging out". it's so much more.
guys, i drank. i drink. it wasn't the first time and it wont be the last, and it is not a problem. i am so happy with where i am right now and i only wish you could look past your own standards and realize that i am measuring up to my own, and that is all anyone can ask of me. (just be happy for me. please.) i dont want to be changed anymore than you would want me to change you. it is possible to be christian in so many ways that to try and judge for yourself who is and who is not is absolutely silly (especially if you have not even met them) only god knows the heart of man...
so this is it. no more talks. no more emails. no more posts. i want everything to go back and be fine. it hurts me so much that due to some nearsightedness two of the most important groups of people in my life may never meet. i urge anyone who reads this to challenge whatever they believe and hold it to yourself, because it is nobody elses business.
sincerely,
(carter)