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[buddy_ruckus]

for some reason if a map is of a part of washington state, you can't check that out of the library. ridculous. i bet i'm the only person that has even looked at a topographical map of west bremerton in the past twenty years. but for some stupid reason, i can't check the dang thing out.
anyway, i used my charm and got the map out for an hour so me and wally could sprint around the most of ellensburg looking for a place to get a color print of it. all is well.

after that, most everything was beautiful. i had a wonderful dinner with an even wonderfuller girl. everything about it just made me feel like i was in some dream. it was too good. i ended the night in the worst way possible. totally misunderstood.

i wish sometimes that i could let a good night be a good night. i have to tweak out the very end so that even at the finish of an utterly beautiful day, i can still have that hour in bed where i can't sleep. all i want to do is call, but that will have to wait. i never meant to come off convicting, and i feel like a wad of scum for making someone i care for so much feel that way...
i love you. i mean alot...

*if you still want me to go to the play with you, count me in*

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