Day 3 of 2007
Dear Journal,
I have been meaning to update this for days but something has been holding me back...
...I'm biting the bullet and getting this done.
New Years was good. We started at Kim, T, Meg and Maggie's apt for some pre-drinking. There were a ton of people there at one point. We left to go to my roommates birthday party on MAC. They're amazing and apparently incredibly attractive according to friends. Next was Margie's party on Grove and that was packed - we stole a bunch of drinks there. Afterwards was the Delta Girls and Shaw Boys party also on Grove where I thought I could play a 20 minute game of flip-cup...not even close. Finally Josh's party and running into Peter and Adrienne on the street in front of Panchero's. I don't remember much after Josh's but apparently I got home. I did make up with Bomeli at Josh's - basically we called each other ass-holes and now we're just fine.
At midnight I was on the street. It seemed really appropriate for this year. T was nearby...but like 20 feet away. Kim and Peter were behind me but like 50 feet away and we were like 100 feet from Josh's party when the clock hit 12. I know there's going to be a lot of transition this year, moving from place to place...and I have to do it alone. Whatever city I end up in I'll need to make a new circle of friends.
The next day we went to Kim's house and ate and played games. So much fun. Too bad we didn't stay the night, but that's cool because we went to the Casino and ended up at Peter's second home! We watched 'Little Miss Sunshine' until 5am and talked until 6am. I had a great time and the lake was beautiful. It did however make me miss Rosseau a lot. I'm really impressed though that Peter is so close with his family, especially his extended family. With all of our family properties and gatherings...we're still not close, just superficially close. I guess that's fine...that's how WASP families go. Everyone wants to be the best, comparing to all the others and not showing the weaknesses.
1.) To be 185 lbs of muscle with 5%-7% body fat by graduation. I will do with with diet and exercise. For the next 12 weeks I'll be on a intense weight gain program starting monday. After that I'll be dropping weight from there until graduation.
2.) To break things off with Scott Hansen in the next two weeks. I won't be back in Chicago for a long time. It's time to stop.
3.) To handle all the transitions that are coming with patience, pride, and understanding. These are the times that will continue to define who I really am. There will be hard times and there will be good times. Keeping a positive attitude will help me through. And keeping end goals in mind will help keep me from losing myself.
4.) To be a good roommate to the girls of the Bailey House. We have different values, different friends, and different priorities. I can learn a lot from Lendo, Nikki, Steph, and Jenks but I need to remain open to new ideas, I also need to remember that I am living with 4 other people when I do things around the house.
5.) To define in a more accurate way what my end career goals are and map my path to get there...not as a static plan, but a dynamic plan that can constantly change.
6.) To keep up with my internships goals for the next 14 weeks when I am only in the office for one day a week. I think it'll be easy to forget that I'm even interning this semester. I need to keep on track.
7.) To stop binge drinking and only socially drink. One drink - that's all. Also to stop going to college bars and start going to young professional bars...as soon as I find some. I'm not that college kid anymore.
8.) To finish my German studies by Spring Break (mid-March). Afterwards to start/continue my French studies - I still switch back and forth between French, German, and English in my head from time to time. It's important I seperate all that out to keep from speaking a strange mix of the three languages.
9.) To stop giving in to my temptations of sleeping with guys I'm not dating. One major key to this is not binge drinking. Really they go hand-in-hand. First, I don't want an STD - I've been incredibly lucky so far. Second, it actually makes me upset the next day. I've become unfortunately good at hooking up with guys.
10.) To have my friends finally meet my parents and possibly my sister.
Seems like a good start.
I had a dream last night about my crush again, this time we were riding on the top of a double-decker bus - damn I hate my metaphoric stuffy nose. T is exactly right - it's just another fight between the head and the heart. I like having crushes, I think they're fun, I just don't want a crush on this guy. Not because he's an embarassing guy, I think he's great but it's a situation that could get complicated.
I have more to write - I just don't want to write anymore right now. I will later.
I have been meaning to update this for days but something has been holding me back...
...I'm biting the bullet and getting this done.
New Years was good. We started at Kim, T, Meg and Maggie's apt for some pre-drinking. There were a ton of people there at one point. We left to go to my roommates birthday party on MAC. They're amazing and apparently incredibly attractive according to friends. Next was Margie's party on Grove and that was packed - we stole a bunch of drinks there. Afterwards was the Delta Girls and Shaw Boys party also on Grove where I thought I could play a 20 minute game of flip-cup...not even close. Finally Josh's party and running into Peter and Adrienne on the street in front of Panchero's. I don't remember much after Josh's but apparently I got home. I did make up with Bomeli at Josh's - basically we called each other ass-holes and now we're just fine.
At midnight I was on the street. It seemed really appropriate for this year. T was nearby...but like 20 feet away. Kim and Peter were behind me but like 50 feet away and we were like 100 feet from Josh's party when the clock hit 12. I know there's going to be a lot of transition this year, moving from place to place...and I have to do it alone. Whatever city I end up in I'll need to make a new circle of friends.
The next day we went to Kim's house and ate and played games. So much fun. Too bad we didn't stay the night, but that's cool because we went to the Casino and ended up at Peter's second home! We watched 'Little Miss Sunshine' until 5am and talked until 6am. I had a great time and the lake was beautiful. It did however make me miss Rosseau a lot. I'm really impressed though that Peter is so close with his family, especially his extended family. With all of our family properties and gatherings...we're still not close, just superficially close. I guess that's fine...that's how WASP families go. Everyone wants to be the best, comparing to all the others and not showing the weaknesses.
1.) To be 185 lbs of muscle with 5%-7% body fat by graduation. I will do with with diet and exercise. For the next 12 weeks I'll be on a intense weight gain program starting monday. After that I'll be dropping weight from there until graduation.
2.) To break things off with Scott Hansen in the next two weeks. I won't be back in Chicago for a long time. It's time to stop.
3.) To handle all the transitions that are coming with patience, pride, and understanding. These are the times that will continue to define who I really am. There will be hard times and there will be good times. Keeping a positive attitude will help me through. And keeping end goals in mind will help keep me from losing myself.
4.) To be a good roommate to the girls of the Bailey House. We have different values, different friends, and different priorities. I can learn a lot from Lendo, Nikki, Steph, and Jenks but I need to remain open to new ideas, I also need to remember that I am living with 4 other people when I do things around the house.
5.) To define in a more accurate way what my end career goals are and map my path to get there...not as a static plan, but a dynamic plan that can constantly change.
6.) To keep up with my internships goals for the next 14 weeks when I am only in the office for one day a week. I think it'll be easy to forget that I'm even interning this semester. I need to keep on track.
7.) To stop binge drinking and only socially drink. One drink - that's all. Also to stop going to college bars and start going to young professional bars...as soon as I find some. I'm not that college kid anymore.
8.) To finish my German studies by Spring Break (mid-March). Afterwards to start/continue my French studies - I still switch back and forth between French, German, and English in my head from time to time. It's important I seperate all that out to keep from speaking a strange mix of the three languages.
9.) To stop giving in to my temptations of sleeping with guys I'm not dating. One major key to this is not binge drinking. Really they go hand-in-hand. First, I don't want an STD - I've been incredibly lucky so far. Second, it actually makes me upset the next day. I've become unfortunately good at hooking up with guys.
10.) To have my friends finally meet my parents and possibly my sister.
Seems like a good start.
I had a dream last night about my crush again, this time we were riding on the top of a double-decker bus - damn I hate my metaphoric stuffy nose. T is exactly right - it's just another fight between the head and the heart. I like having crushes, I think they're fun, I just don't want a crush on this guy. Not because he's an embarassing guy, I think he's great but it's a situation that could get complicated.
I have more to write - I just don't want to write anymore right now. I will later.