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So i have decided to update at 2 in the AM. go figure. well me padres have been out of town for quite for the past 6 days and i have been lovin it. Having the house to myself gives me this amazign sense of freedom. Freedom is awesome. Well i have finally Graduated. Its kinda cerial in a way. You work so hard to graduate and then once its all over, it feels like it never even happened. Im just so happy i can get on with my life outside the prison walls of simi valley high school. On to moorpark!! hahaha. Im actaully looking forward to it cause i get to control my own schedual and focus on what i really need to get accomplished. Oh and i also just got a job in a dental office to gain experience while i go to school. Ill just be answering phones for a while then i will get trained in the back room to help the Dr. Im damn excited! no more IN-N-OUT! hells ya. im having boy delimas... dont get me wrong,im still totally in love but some how i dont know if that makes it worst. I think it becomes more easier to tell him my deep true feelings. I feel like i get more upset when he leaves at long periods of time then i used to when we first started dating. Im not possesive but i just really enjoy spending time with him and when he isnt there, im kinda bummed. He is just hella busy with his carrer and i dont want to interfere with my non sense... but sometimes its hard not to. I just gotta get into my carrer and keep myslef occupied. thats all. And im also starting to miss my bestest friend and shes not even gone yet... how does that happen?? you just start realizing how real and speaial friendships are when they are gonna move 3000 miles away fromm you. :-) thats about all. good nite now.