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i am having a mental break down day. finals have now overladed my brain. and i realize i havent been trying as hard as i should and some of my grades show for that. but i cant tell my parents that? they'ed filp. so i keep saying i doing fine! so i am trying to work my ass off these last final days to make sure my report card looks damn good.
oh ok, so i didnt talk to my boy all yesterday and he didnt call at all until today at 12, which is pretty unusal. and the main thought that popped in my head was "what if he got in an accident and no one has told me yet."which just clicked in my head that i really really do trust him. i didnt think he was with a girl or out doin something else. it comforting to know that i can always trust him and i love that. gezz was i over anaylizing the not calling thing. he just took a 24 hour shift at the hospital. i dont like how i was depending on him to call me. it made me feel like i should be doing something to occupi my time.... i need to find a hobbi. school work is not a hobbi. my friend kaila just informed me that we should start up kick boxing. i like this idea. good shit. ok im feeling better. SCHOOL SUX ASS! 2 days to winter formal. IM EXCITED! i am now finding peace with my day. much better. i think it might be the hormones im on. i need to change.
oh ok, so i didnt talk to my boy all yesterday and he didnt call at all until today at 12, which is pretty unusal. and the main thought that popped in my head was "what if he got in an accident and no one has told me yet."which just clicked in my head that i really really do trust him. i didnt think he was with a girl or out doin something else. it comforting to know that i can always trust him and i love that. gezz was i over anaylizing the not calling thing. he just took a 24 hour shift at the hospital. i dont like how i was depending on him to call me. it made me feel like i should be doing something to occupi my time.... i need to find a hobbi. school work is not a hobbi. my friend kaila just informed me that we should start up kick boxing. i like this idea. good shit. ok im feeling better. SCHOOL SUX ASS! 2 days to winter formal. IM EXCITED! i am now finding peace with my day. much better. i think it might be the hormones im on. i need to change.